C H L O E ♥

Cosmoprof

2011-12-27T01:02:00.000+08:00

I still can remember one of the days in secondary school. It was chinese lesson. I drew on a chinese textbook, what I wanted to do after my poly life. At that time, I was already fixed on going to a polytechnic instead of a junior college. But I did tell myself I would consider a junior college if my L1R5 turned out to be a flying 10 and below. Ha. For easier access to a university.

My step after poly, was to work a year, then go back to take a degree (which I don't know why). Then I would work and study at the same time, and save money for a professional makeup course immediately after my degree, in which I were to continue that path down my life. Actually I couldn't remember if getting a degree was under one of my paths. But I supposed I did, cuz I remembered telling myself to consider junior college if my results were good. Yeah, but, I was born not able to enjoy school of degree-level and above. :/

With limited access to the internet then, I couldn't use the net to research about makeup schools. Come polytechnic, I researched the various makeup schools and set my eyes on Cosmoprof Academy.

Yea, and so, now, having failed bridging to UOL, which caused me to dislike studying even more, I went to Cosmoprof.

It's a little bit scary. To imagine myself 5 years later without a degree. That freaking piece of certificate that a lot of people thought could define a person's, what, intelligence or something? Or to get good jobs and be rich in future. I don't know why I don't see that. Even if you have Masters. Uhhh... So? Ya, you'll be holding higher positions and earning bigger moolahs. But that doesn't mean people with no masters can't make big moolahs too. Opportunities still is a factor.

And yes, so it's really very sad that I don't see getting a degree is very, very important. Sometimes I'm so worried with my thinking, and start fearing for the future. But, aiya, just set my mind lo. Don't regret the choices you've made.

I think I am optimistic in a little bit of a different way than others. :/

Of course, who will know, I may be going to a private school to get a degree, probably something NOT MAJORITY involving math, like banking and finance. *cries*

I enjoy studying marketing cuz it's not boring. Maybe will go and get a degree. Or maybe a degree in English. If there is any!

Back to track, my interest, is in makeup.I hate myself because when I was in secondary school, my co-curricular activity was being a member of the dance society. So when we put makeup, thick ones, for stage performances, I had no idea some thing call MAKEUP REMOVER actually exists. So ya. Sorry. Random a lil bit. But ya! So I hadn't removed my makeup properly for freaking 4 years. I was so simple then, no makeup, don't even know what is a makeup remover.

But oh ya, in primary school, I tested my mum's makeup out. HEH. Isn't that some thing ALL girls will do?!

But yea. I guess I was in love all the while. With makeup. So much that I needed to keep the residue on (or rather, literally IN my face) for 4 years.

WAIT. I performed an indian dance when I was in Kindergarten. Freaking thick makeup, with diamontes and crystals on my face. And no proper washing after that too! :( No wonder my face complexion isn't perfect now. Boo. It could have been perfect.

BUT SOOOOO! Cosmoprof. I was like in heaven. My classmates, all with the same love, same interest, same curiosity, same dream. ♥

I wasn't that professional. YET. Haha. But pretty happy with everything. My works, my teacher, my classmates. Seeing color palettes cheer me up. Almost instantly. Seeing makeup brushes is so... A happy thing for me too...

Some pictures taken during class...

Day bridal makeup, done by my fellow artist, Lulu.

Night bridal makeup. I drew on Lulu.

Colour bridal photography. But I drew on Tingting. Hmmm. Challenging. Cuz of her hooded eyes. :/

Tingting drew on me. Black and white bridal photography. Ironically, I am not posting any black and white shots. Hmmm.

Fashion makeup. Smokey eyes. We drew on ourselves. So I drew my eyes by myself. Not bad eh! :)

1930s fashion makeup. URGH. Forgot to take a snap of my super super thin eyebrow.

1940s fashion makeup. Bold red lips, lined eyes, subtle blush. Love it.

Take a look at this. Got a feel of professionalism? Hehe.

Me and my current hanging out mates! Before we all have to switch partners again!

Ta-ta.

Was so close to losing myself. Felt different as I was years ago. And I missed the years-ago me. :/ Focus focus focus. Priorities. Plan and manage. Hais. One step at a time, to find back that me.

Wish myself success and good luck. :)

♥ Merry Xmas and a belated happy boxing day.

It's Fuck-My-Throat Week.

2011-12-20T01:04:00.009+08:00

Seriously. Fuck my throat. This is the worst sore throat of my entire 22 years living in this world. My voice was slowly failing on Friday. Then, I was officially stripped of my intonation on Saturday. And it wasn't okay on Sunday. In fact it got worse. Then came Monday, able to speak, but losing it in every sentence, and coughing as often as don't know what. AND ON TOP OF ALL THE INABILITY TO VERBALIZE, my throat is being an asshole. Hurts like hell. And still hurts like hell.

FML.

I had to postpone an interview cuz of this bad, distressing condition.

Never mind my sore throat for a while, at least I can still type. Wanna update myself about the superb KL getaway last month. ^^

It's Marriott again! ♥

With my lovely boy.Had a wonderful dinner at some restaurant called Gaucho Grill. Craving for steak was satisfied by stealing some bites off my boyfriend's plate. And then I had my all-time favorite, ribs, but it was the first time I had beef ribs. Naise... They have this self-service salad and soup bar.

Back to hotel... Got Christmas decorations already! Makes me happy looking at Christmas deco. Beats me.

Next day by the pool.

Lots of narcissism involved. C'mon, in a favorite dress plus a good-hair day, who could resist?

Went to Sunway and stayed in a mediocre hotel which doesn't deserve any photos taken. So I did not snap any. Haha. Okay, it isn't that bad. Even right now thinking about it. There's beds, lights, a small tv, mirror, bathroom with shower. But I can't stand dust and dirt. C'mon, those rooms are intended for visitors, people are expected to stay and sleep there. And you don't bother to clean up? If you have your own house and you have guests over, you also need to clean up luh. Let alone you are running a hotel business. What do you treat your guests as? Dogs ah? Gee...

Okay, went to the Sunway mall. Shopped happily!

Took pictures incessantly!

I came back with shopping bags and a happy girl. Hehe.

Well, and so, Christmas is this weekend.

Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year in advance. ♥

I'm off to coughing my brains out. Ta-ta.

Clubbing

2011-12-08T03:36:00.009+08:00

Sexy & I Know It! event at Helipad on the 19 Nov 2011.

Got high, angry, sad, bitter, happy, tearful, mad. Talk about a bottle full if emotions. Hahaha. I got to stop doing that man! :P Sorry, boyfriend. It's how alcohol do stuffs to people to do stuffs. You know, words and phrases like drunken stupor, under the influence of, inebriated, intoxicated, boozy, tipsy... And the more words and phrases relating to these condition, confused, disoriented, befuddle, daze, muddle, fluster.

Ya. Sorry. Just trying to make myself feel less awkward by saying too much stuff. HEH.

I had spent an hour and a half on my makeup, cuz I thought I had a lot of time then. I applied the things I've learnt in class and tried it on myself. And woah. The good base and foundation really made the makeup long-lasting and hmmm, not trying to boast, but honestly better looking too.

Well. Talk about effort what.

Karen, Lina and me.

I kissed a girl and I liked it, the taste of her cherry chapstick~ ♫ ♫

Okay, a small picture of a hot picture. Haha.

I don't even remember her name!

But there was tongue involved. Har, take that.

I do not enjoy clubbing and nightlife that much anymore. I swear!

I rather have lazy afternoons at the mall, or aimless window-shopping down Orchard Road, and a casual coffee at Starbucks.

And then sleep early at 12am (latest) at night, wake up at 8am in the morning, have a hearty breakfast, go for a jog, read a book, watch tv... Then some occasional late nights...

Sigh.I can actually achieve that. Haha. If I can have a proper room.

Well. Not going to dwell. I'm sick and I am so going to sleep now.

♥

It's December Already.

2011-12-06T04:29:00.022+08:00

Damn. Seriously? My last entry was 1 month ago? November passed in a flash can! Geez! Now it's hello December. Hello.

Hmmm. Run-through...

In the last week of October, drove up to KL and had a luxurious stay at Marriott.

Kinda growing to love roadtrips. The longer the better. Hahahaha.

Reached our beloved hotel.

Yea, fell sick. WTH right.

Made the best out of it. Went for a soak in the pool nevertheless.

Wonderful use of the spa facilities. ♥ Total bliss.

A&W. Loveee the coney dog.

And in November, caught Adventures of Tin Tin in the Shaw premiere theaters at Nex, Serangoon.

In November, there was Xiaoting's birthday. At Hotel Fort Canning.

Last minute purchase of a black dress and the belt cuz of the black theme the party was supposed to be in.

In November, I watched a hockey match in Malaysia.

In November, we went fishing at Jurong Hill.

In November, I watched Twilight, Breaking Dawn. Still don't like Taylor Lautner. And Robert Pattinson looks weirder day by day.

In November, I attended Jm's sister's wedding. In a beige dress I love dearly.

Guess who was there!

And guess who took pictures with him like a silly, starstruck girl?

But nothing still beats pictures with my love. ♥

In November, there was the "I Do" Weddings at Marina Bay Waterfront Promenade where 102 couples solemnized on 20.11.2011.

And had a great dinner after that.

In November, went swimming with Kino and Kiko.

In November, my makeup course started. And I'm loving it.

Ta-ta.

October Snippets.

2011-11-07T23:48:00.000+08:00

Hello November. Time flies.

November's gonna be great! My course is starting, boyfriend's school is starting.

And today's a public holiday. Not that public holidays affect me now, but still, yaay!

October: Jzeying's birthday, Emily's birthday... There's so many 21st birthdays this year! Omg.

My dear Jzeying's birthday.

Emily's birthday.

Some random chillling night at Chevrons with Linda and Samantha...

Which then turned out to be a tong kuai night at Rebel and Shanghai Dolly.

My go-back-to-work mood is threatening to stay rooted in me, I must do something about it quick. :/

Haven't been blogging much, but not doing anything constructive at the moment. I waste time.

Okay, till next time.

Family.

2011-10-09T21:02:00.000+08:00

Life's a bitch. Fucking bitch.

Just now, I was lamenting about my fucked-up life in the house, and asked my mother, "Would you rather be a happy dog or a sad human?"

I know I shouldn't have asked that. I silently crossed my fingers, hoping that will undo what I asked.

But anyway. Bottom-line is, if I were to lead such a sad life, I'd rather be dead.

Yes, I am inpatient. I cannot wait for 10 years down the road when my life may be better. But that's just a hypothesis. I declare I am pessimistic. What if life don't get any better? Okay, now there comes a sentence that says life is in your hands, you choose how you want it to turn out. Or, it's not your fault if you are born poor, but it your fault if you die poor.

Seriously? These sentences varies from people to people. It works for some, it doesn't for the others. Some people toil for a couple of years and Lady Luck shows herself to them. No wait, some don't even get to toil. THEY are Mr and Miss Lucky themselves.Getting whatever fuck they want but still don't cherish it.

Some toil for decades. Nothing is reaped. I'm not talking about myself. I am lucky enough already I fucking know, stop judging. I've seen people whom I am very sympathetic over. And what? They had longed for a better life in the past too.

And there's so many other factors that may deem if you will make it through hard times. Family's support etc. If you suffer from family rejection, friends' denials, self-repudiation, and all the shit in the world and you still make it through those shit, you are good.

And that's cuz some people don't need any support, emotionally, physically, or mentally.

I NEED.

So stop judging. I've came out of the judging thingy when I finally put themselves in my shoes.

EVERYONE IS FUCKING DIFFERENT.

FUCK SERIOUSLY?! Am I doing this? I am arguing with myself. And guess what? Handsdown, I am going to suck it up and make my life better. But that doesn't eliminate the fact that a certain someone or two someones in my family is fucked up.

Please man. Nobody owes you a living. You owe your mother a living, to be frank. So please fucking show her some fucking respect. You got what you want. I am so called going through the stage that you claimed to go through previously. Be contented and happy and stop digging people's graves.

Can you please grow a little bit more brains and know that family is the most important thing ever. How the hell do you grow so big and strong, if not? Strong enough for you to physically attack people. Fucking hell. Who fed you? And now you are letting them wonder if they have fed you shit all the while previously. Who bathed you? Who taught you to walk? And now you are using the same pair of legs to walk away from them when they are talking to you. Who taught you to speak your first words? And now you are using that same old bloody mouth to scold them. Who paid and sent you to school? And now you are showing them that the hard-earned money they had to sent you to school was washed down the drain because you turn out to be this ungrateful, unfilial dog.

Didn't you fucking realize no matter how much evil you are doing or have done, they are still loving you and still concerned about your everything?

This is why families are great. They accept who you are without judging, and come what may. You can be your own true self, emit your true emotions, and they will still be there.

But you, this selfish ingrate, took advantage of that. Please. Nobody is your slave. They don’t owe you a living. You do.

I have enough of ranting for now. Lappie fucking hung on me just now, and my feel for furious typing is gone.

I feel better and stronger already anyway. Kudos. Screw people who let me down. Who needs you.

Till next time.

When life becomes a drag because of your own doings. T.T

2011-09-28T01:45:00.005+08:00

I remembered saying how much I preferred inactivity and boredom to deadlines and hustle. Well, being bored or getting busy, now I think I favor the latter.

I don't know, I don't know! Humans are weird. The grass is always greener on the other side, and it's very true. Humans will never be happy with what they have. Complain about this when they have it, and complain about otherwise when they have the other. There won't be a fence to be sat on, will there? So that humans can experience best of both pastures.

Gee, now I can't find the balance to be busy and having some time to shut down simultaneously. I will. But I can't now. Million and one limiting factors. Neither can I nua like a sloth but have income coming in as well.

Anyway, I'm not working, not studying and am sleeping too much. This will lead to depression ya?

Gosh. The harsh reality hit me when I came back from the Land of No Worries - Miri.

Miri was great this time round. No doubt, there were boring moments, like the time when I was left alone at home while the guys went for soccer. -.- I was at home for about 3 grueling hours. Not exactly grueling. Cuz I was playing The Sims Social on Facebook.

WTF.

Get it? Hahaha. I actually found the time alone at home not as grueling because I was freaking playing The Sims Social, that game about letting your Sim have a life and go out of the house to be socially active. Talk about epic irony.

Another boring moment(s) would be when the guys were glued to the fucking tv playing Winning Eleven on PS3. OMG. I couldn't watch cable tv cuz they were hogging for days on the teevee. DAYS.

Well, back. I admit I was lazy, and more importantly, I wanted to focus on one thing at a time. But I can't, not anymore. :(

Yes, I grumble a lot. But that doesn't mean I gave up trying to make things better. That doesn't mean I do not know how to appreciate the sweet life given to me. That doesn't make me pathetic as well. I'm just expressive, and honest to myself and the people around me. And talkative. And expressive.

Oh my, oh my. Rants.

Okay, enough of delineating about the Miri trip or anything else. Now, imma illustrate. With photos.

One day, we went to the Latak Waterfall at Lambir Hills National Park. Wearing slippers, we practically hiked painstakingly through the bloody forest filled with slippery and fucked up concrete slabs and wooden planks, mushy leaves and fucked up soil.

Oh wait, there were the bridges as well, that were extremely shaky.

Felt like I was in those thriller movie. Wait. Let me direct the scene in my mind a little while.

Some mad-ass murderer was after them. They ran, reached a bridge. Well. A bridge over troubled waters (pun intended. NICCCKKKK!!!! :P) One person had to cross the almost-torn bridge to the other side at a time. So this scared-out-of-her-wits girl, she looked nervously over her shoulder where she knew the murderer was hot on her heels and nearing. She looked over the other side of the bridge, which her friends, who had successfully made it to the other side, were nodding in encouragement and beckoning her to get over quickly. She looked down to the troubled waters. She decided to cross the bridge. She took a deep breath, and that each step she took made the hinges creak and seconds later, she fell, cuz she unluckily stepped onto a plank which was already, unfortunately loose, or the rotten, wooden plank just gave way under her feet. Um. Ok. She died nevertheless. So much for trying to escape from the murderer.

Ha. Wild imagination. But I really did felt something like that when I was crossing the bridge! Gosh! :(

Okay, we made it to the waterfall. Alive. And back as well too!

Pretty, isn't it?

They swam to the bottom of the waterfall!

I've caught tiny baby prawns with my bare hands. They'll come and nibble on your feet if you stay stationary enough in shallow waters. But one thing I don't understand is, HOW THE HELL CAN THEY HOP?

I like the sunsets in Miri. I know there are much prettier ones. But the nicest that I've seen are the ones in Miri, can. And it's that same sun we see at every part of the earth. It looks different, however. *Shrugs*

Another fine day,

Beaches. ♥

Okay, so we tried to get to the other side, over the sharp rocks, to the 'private beach', but damn, it was high-tide and we couldn't access it. Submerged under the water. The sharp rocks. (Seriously I need to go get some outdoor skills like rock-climbing or something. Walking through forested areas with insects and weird plants and slippery, muddy grounds, no. Climbing sharp, slippery rocks. I almost died. Like, not from falling. From the thought of it.) Ya. The sharp rocks, with the splashing waves, my hydrophobia, my inability to swim, my slippers (again), I thought I wouldn't be able to make it. But I did. YAAY! Mind over body!

Anyway, yes, I was wearing my new shorts, so movements were very difficult. And my cute polka dot shirt. And a white slingbag. Honestly I was trying not to get dirty. Whoever would have thought that the beach is SO PRIVATE. Hey, I'm not trying to act like a princess and whine over dirt or a little climbing. I don't mind dirt at all, and I'm definitely not a princess, duh, it's just phobias, and un-expectancy. Hello, if I had known, I'll wear shoes. An old tank top. Knee guards. Helmets. I would bring my climbing gear.

We stopped as far as we could.

The guys played soccer on the sandy grounds later after that. They can never get bored of it.

No roadtrip to Kuching or wherever. :( Cancelled due to some reasons. Decided to have our own mini holiday in the small town.

And who could have imagine a small town would have Marriot.

Pool's our pal. Rain or shine, night or day.

Soccer again. 4 people? See what I mean? :O

Me and Jessie sought refuge from the guys' castaway in a nice pavilion and cam-whored. Ordered shisha. So the guys would come back. Voluntarily. But they didn't. They came back because it was too dark to continue playing.

This shot is soooo beautiful.

And I miss the bak kut teh.

Period.

Watched Fright Night.

Most memorable conversation -

Peter Vincent to Ginger: “Fuck you!!”
Ginger: “I will fuck myself, somebody’s gotta do it!”

(Y)

I'll be back to rant.

Till then!

*Smooches*

2011-09-23T01:47:00.000+08:00

Love is always patient and kind.
It is never jealous.
Love is never boastful or conceited.
It is never rude or selfish.
It does not take offense and is not resentful.
Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth
and to hope and to endure whatever comes.
There are three things that last faith, hope and love,
and love is the greatest of these.

A Very Lazy Post

2011-09-07T02:12:00.003+08:00

*Edited* Cuz I am in a better mood 18 hours later and decided to write more.

♡ 20th August at Attica.

I was in a pair of very high gladiator heels, and couldn't walk properly from the moment I stepped out of the car. HEH.

That night was sooo fun. You know why? Cuz we were in our own big couch area, with our own 'balcony' and our own smoking area (which comes with a retractable shelter! Meaning if it had rained, we could still smoke, and be dry! Haha.) Then, there's a bucket conveniently behind us on the shelves, so I could conveniently throw up inside it. Okay, which I did.The only bad thing, it was the 'Cook A Pot Of Curry' Day... So, yea, the dancefloor reeked so badly of the curry smell. I have nothing against curry or the smell of curry normally, but, in a club?! Yea lo.

♡ Dinner with Jennyfurr and Bee Geok at Ion, a few days after my resignation.

Very nice roasted meat omg! Forgot the name of the restaurant already. And forgot the directions to the restaurant already. Pfftt...

♡ Linda's birthday early this September, had gone over her place with a cake. Haha. First time doing this to a girl. :P

Then the next day we hit Dragonfly.

Was dressed for chilling. Thought we were going to chill-drink. Don't really like the clubbing scene anymore. But I'm in if it is a very special occasion. Like Linda's birthday. Haha.

♡ Fengyi's 21st birthday. :) Little gathering with the 4/4 peeps! ^^

I love themed parties! Haha. I love racking my brain and thinking what to wear to match the themes. But anyway, Fengyi's theme was Spring. Nice one! Cuz I like florals! But I was a little confused after that.

Are we supposed to dress like Spring, or are we supposed to dress like we ARE in the Spring season. Hmmmm?

But still, florals ftw. They are NOT ALL grandma-prints okay!

So there.
Lazy, angry, and hot. Goodbye.

count the number of 'negative' in this entry.

2011-08-18T22:58:00.005+08:00

I'm not going to type one whole chunk of sad realizations, regretful words and all the whatsnots.

But,

SCREW MY NEGATIVITY.

And whatever that comes or will come, COME. Come full force on me!

Cuz I'm so going to handle it well.

How's THIS for negativity.

At least I tried to think of ways to solve certain matters. Even if they are all stupid suggestions, at least I tried to think of something! And if the suggestion doesn't make any dog sense, I think of something else. Instead of sitting by, day by day, procrastinating the problem.

And I account for my own actions. I quit my job, I make damn sure well I find another one. I spend money, I make sure damn well I can pay.

Credit me for that. Credit me for trying to make things right. Credit me for shouldering some unnecessary things cuz I want to be responsible for making things right.

I don't think most people see that in me, eh? You all just think I spend money without thinking, do things without thinking. I may have overlooked some factors sometimes. But it doesn't make me have the disability to think of consequences.

I value people's opinions. In fact, they are so important to me, I let that get the better of me sometimes. I specially value my loved one's opinions. Not that you can't tell me anything cuz I'm negative.

How about some positivity now?

I am positive that I can rely on you.

I am positive that you can make me happy.

I am positive that you we can be very very happy.

And when I turn negative on some of these points, or some that are not named, why?

Cuz I am negative, that's why now I'm negative that I can rely on you?

If I am so negative towards your intentions/in my thinking, then what are the above positive examples? Bullshit?

Talk about negativity! When I keep finding ways to make things better. When I try to think of ways to problems. Tell me that I'm always so pessimistic. What caused it?

And don't pinpoint me when there's a proven theory about cause and effect.

There's a reason for everything. Something happens, that leads to something else, and which leads to something else.

I know. SCREW MY NEGATIVITY. That is something I have to work on. Harder. Not that I don't have a tinge of positivity in me.

By taking up that diploma, already half-prove I'm positive enough to THINK I can make it. Not totally make it up-there, like some celebrity. But I'm already finding something in something that a lot of people deemed 'impossible' and 'hopeless'. Doesn't that count as positive?

Then why don't you say people who stick to their sucky jobs and facing their fucked-up superiors as NEGATIVE. Cuz they think they cannot do any better outside of their current job.

I'm not saying it's a bad thing sticking by a 'normal' job. It's perfectly fine and practical and it's good! Something I WISH I CAN DO. But I can't. And so, back to track, doesn't that count as negative too cuz they think it's not such a good idea to leave a decently-paying and stable job. Everyone has their way of looking at things what. One can trim bushes at the middle of the expressway. But some can't.

You can't just say they are negative when they complain things, or blame everything on themselves. To some extent, they are being negative, yes. But to some extent, they are being responsible for things related to them. And from there, they try to make things better. And if you want to be successful in preventing them to blame themselves, then show them that in fact, they are not to blame. Talk is cheap. It's not even a penny's worth. Unless you are some good fucker giving seminars and talks.

If I don't fucking feel any sense of responsibility, I can fuck care everything, and everything that happens, I will say "it's not my fault." And there you have it, ultra-positive that whatever that happens it's not my fault, so it's not my problem, and I'm not responsible for making things right again.

Of course everyone must have a fair bit of negativity and positivity.

YOU only see MY negativity cuz I keep filling you with sad stuff. But when I'm being positive, you miss that out, cuz negativity now defines me and to you, you only see this gulf of negativity overwhelming me.

And you will go, "THERE! You and your negativity again", instead of "That's positiveness!" when I say certain things.

I've lost myself saying all these things, I'm not sure if I make any more sense anymore. Just, screw my negativity okay?

And also, I'm not that all-negative, because I see positiveness in what I am going to do. And that, is a fucking major decision. More than being negative about a partner's intentions.

I've never even started out, and you are telling me I won't do good.

Look who's being negative?

AND FUCK, MY BALUT POST IS STILL AT THE END OF MY PAGE NOW.

Life gets a little boring when you are not in the clutches of a job.

2011-08-15T15:24:00.006+08:00

Hello. It's been one hell of a nightmare lately, as my let my anger get the better of me. Haha. Ask my boyfriend. But well. I don't want to grow to be an angry old woman. The thought scares me. Haha.

Ehhh. Last day in OCBC... Boss treated me and Jennifer to lunch at a seafood restaurant. Damn happy, cuz I ate my favourite creamy butter crab. <3 Finger-linking good.

Jennifer and me, looking damn kempt and neat beside her.

I still remembered the first time I saw her in the branch, and was screaming in my mind, "Somebody my age finally!" Although I knew she wasn't there to stay long, just a trainee there. But was mad happy, can! I'm not saying the rest of my co-workers aren't good to mingle. But I, me, yours truly, need someone my age, to gossip, to complain to, to chat, to joke about things only youngsters joke about. Jennifer, Jennifer... Haha. All the best to you. :)

That night, went for a dinner and some drinks with Jennifer, Jennyfurr and Bee Geok at Harry's.

I won't forget that night. Haha. That's the night I went into JB after that with my bf and friends, did nothing, ate nothing, but returned to Singapore with a $207.35 packet of leaves. FML. Lesson learnt. =.=

4/4 gathering sometime back.

Am going to visit Qiuling in Melbourne, am going to visit Qiuling in Melbourne. But the air tickets like a little expensive for the unemployed me. But if I were to get a job, then I may not be able to visit her.

What dilemma.

And Night Safari at the beginning of the month with bf and his family, and the Korean family. Hoho.

That's one stupid raccoon.

Spot the 3 Korean faces! Haha.

That is one naughty boy, I tell you. He's super hyperactive. Ruined my Rubik's cube with my bf's pictures, barbarically scratching my bf's arm, snatched my computer and my game, running around the house spouting Korean, hahaha. Okay, the last one was excused, cuz if I have understood Korean, it wouldn't be 'spouting' already.

Liverpool & Some KL Loving

2011-08-08T01:25:00.004+08:00

Went to KL to catch the Liverpool VS Malaysia match on the 16th. With bf and his family.

Haha, yes. It's so long ago.

Anyway. Damn pissed lo. When I've got a job, I feel mundane. Now no job, also mundane.

Bye bye, OCBC. Going to follow my dreams.

Bah, enough. Back to main. The match.

More red tops than on National Day. Wow.

That is one funny hell of a picture. The first one below at the left. One mountain of Ramly burgers. HAHAHA. Still funny now, tomorrow, always.

The whole tour team. Yes, that's me, the idiot holding the scarf upside down. Hahahahahahahaha!

Me and my favourite boy. :)

No-more-braces smile. HEH!

Went for some window-shopping too!!!

So there. So nice. If only there's such short getaways every month. Grrrrr.

♥ HEY BABY. I'm sorry there aren't much 'bedtime stories' for you to read lately.
But it also won't be necessary when I'm there while you sleep!
HEH!

MID JULY UPDATE

2011-07-14T23:06:00.003+08:00

HAHAHA I SWEAR THE TITLE WAS MEANT TO BE "EARLY JULY UPDATE". NOW IT'S MID JULY UPDATE, AND I'M NOT SURPRISED IF IT BECOMES "LATE JULY UPDATE". HAHAHAHA.

Whew. I hate July.

July, back to work. NO public holidays.

July, bridging results. Need to wreck my brains thinking what to do already. AGAIN.

JULY, pockets almost empty due to June's splurge on the camera, Qoosh shopping, Miri trip.

Whatever.

Time freaking flies, hello, it's gonna be National Day next month!

My Miri trip with the bf and his cuzzies.

I LOVE MY CAMERA! :P

Too pretty to be missed.

It wouldn't hurt to have one more swimming trip cuz I love night-swimming more than the day one? *small voice* I don't wanna get tanned.

All in a week's work. Or rather, all work's in a week.

2011-06-23T01:31:00.004+08:00

OH BLAH.

I've been working without off-days for almost 3 weeks!

Okay, not counting the medical leave that I've taken last Friday and Saturday. Menstrual cramps are to be made official ruin-your-day-whatever-you're-doing condition.

Anyway, it's like a cycle everyday. WORK, get tired and sleepy, WORK, get restless, WORK. But I'm not that depressed over it anymore! ^^

See, to prove my point about what a blah working consecutively has been, on Monday, it's like the threshold of misery, MONDAY BLUES. Haven't gotten over weekend mood (weekend's NEVER long enough), haven't catch up on sleep (although that was the weekend plan everyday), haven't recollect the working state of mind (have I ever?).

On Tuesday, relieved that I have survived the Monday blues. Little, little bit of mood to work already. Tuesdays are BLAH. Cuz it's neither the start of the week, nor the middle of the week. But it's more of the start of the week. Cuz it's the second day. Am I bullshitting?

Wednesday, excited that half the week is almost over. Manage to convince myself that the week has passed kinda quickly cuz wow it's Wednesday already! O.o

Thursday, super glad, cuz I just have to get past this day and welcome Friday. Thursdays always feel like the week is ending already. Happy, happy.

Friday, the TGIF doesn't apply to me anymore. Rather, it's more like, Oh-my-gosh-it's-Friday cuz Saturday the branch is still open till 11.30am. Means no late nights, no outrageous fun. :/ A little bit will do though. I can stand the tiredness while working. It's the waking-up-in-the-morning part. :( It's always the waking up part.

Saturday. Ecstatic. After work will probably hit the town. Well, at least for these few weeks, I've been doing that. Love dressing better than my usual uniform and shorts and tshirts. Love to be in heels, I even feel in bliss when my feet aches from the heels. Well, at least I have a thank-god-it's-Saturday day. I love Saturdays. Cuz I know the next day is a Sunday. It's a sleeping-in day, and still-got-time-to-rest-if-I-get-over-exhausted-on-Saturday-night day. So I will go all out, in killing my energy.

Come to Sunday, I will be DAMN DAMN SAD. Especially Sunday evenings. Like WTF. The weekend is ending! Just like that, in a twinkling of an eye?! I haven't even breathe enough. I love quiet Sunday mornings, cuz I would love to sleep in, wake up lazily, have lunch/early dinner lethargically, before my joys are short-lived and I have to expect the night to come glumly. Sundays force me to hit the sack earlier than the day before. Cuz. It's back to work the following day.

Then comes MONDAY. Again. And the humdrum starts. Again. URGH.

I can just copy and paste the whole chunk again to describe my week. HAHA.

And so, the other time in May when Jiaming had his birthday revelry. At K-Suite, Illuma.

Nice, big room with everything. The only thing missing is the washroom inside the room itself.

UOL trio, without that Chunseng. Which reminds me... :(

Anticipating doldrums at Miri this coming weekend till next Tuesday. Shall meditate and indulge in superb inactivity and shutting off.

Wheeeeeee.It's Thursday! So it's the super-glad-cuz-I-just-have-to-get-past-this-day-and-welcome-Friday-and-Thursdays-always-feel-like-the-week-is-ending-already day! :D

WHAT?!?!?!

2011-06-09T02:34:00.010+08:00

WHAT THE HELL.

I just saw images of baluts.

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Adapted from Wikipedia.

A balut is a fertilized duck (or chicken) egg with a nearly-developed embryo inside that is boiled and eaten in the shell.

Popularly believed to be an aphrodisiac and considered a high-protein, hearty snack.
(Stick to oysters luh.)

They are common, everyday food in some other countries in Southeast Asia.
(Everyday food?!)
They are often served with beer.
(Stick to nuts, chips and sotong balls luh.)

Baluts can be eaten with salt/pepper/vinegar mixture as seasonings.
(Don't care what seasonings. It's bad enough by nature.)
The broth surrounding the embryo is sipped from the egg before the shell is peeled, and the yolk and young chick inside can be eaten.
(Ya, use the word young some more. Doesn't the word 'young' just means 'vulnerable and cute' in this case? Geez.)
In some restaurants in Philippines, balut are served as appetizers in restaurants: fried in omelettes or even used as filling in baked pastries.
(Oyster omelettes not satisfying enough.)
In Vietnam, balut are eaten with a pinch of salt, lemon juice, plus ground pepper and Vietnamese Coriander leaves.
A similar preparation is known in China as Maodan (毛蛋; literally "feathered egg"), Wangjidan (旺鸡蛋; literally "flush egg") or Huozhuzi (活珠子; literally "living bead").
(On a side note, I will not actually choose to believe people from this country won't eat such things, they already cook soups from human fetus and cook fresh puppy meat. What else do you not expect them to eat?)
Fertilized duck eggs are kept warm in the sun and stored in baskets to retain warmth. After nine days, the eggs are held to a light to reveal the embryo inside. Approximately eight days later the balut are ready to be cooked, sold, and eaten.
(Fuck you.)
Vendors sell cooked balut out of buckets of sand (used to retain warmth) accompanied by small packets of salt.
(-.-)
The cooking process is identical to that of hard-boiled chicken eggs, and baluts are eaten while still warm.
(Stick to hard-boiled eggs which still look like an egg when peeled luh. Baluts reveal chicks in fetus form when peeled, for God's sake.)
Duck eggs that are not properly developed after nine to twelve days are sold as penoy, which look, smell and taste similar to a regular hard-boiled egg. In Filipino cuisine, these are occasionally beaten and fried, similar to scrambled eggs, and served with a vinegar dip.
(Don't care baluts or penoy, still damn cruel.)
In the Philippines, the ideal balut is 17 days old, at which point it is said to be balut sa puti ("wrapped in white"). The chick inside is not old enough to show its beak, feathers or claws and the bones are undeveloped.
(Ya, still got the cheek to go ahead cooking them while knowing they are "not old enough to show its beak, feathers or claws and the bones are undeveloped.")
The Vietnamese often prefer their balut mature from 19 days up to 21 days, when the chick is old enough to be recognizable as a baby duck and has bones that will be firm but tender when cooked.
(What, better feel eating the tender bones? More crunchy? GEEZ!)
In Cambodia, it is eaten while it is still warm in its shell. It is served with nothing more than a little garnish, which is usually a mixture of lime juice and ground pepper.
(Sick.)

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Well imagine eating them at their earlier stages! CRUEL!

They haven't even get to see the world.

Well, I shall not say I don't eat poultry, but that's when they grow older and they need to die anyway. Would you wanna eat chicks and ducklings or ugly and noisy chickens and fat ducks?

It's the same given an adult and a crying baby, when both the adult and the baby are annoying you to the max, which one would you punch?

And. Imagine someone eating your baby from your womb.

Imagine eating a fetus.

You see, what difference does it makes eating this:

And this:

GOT DIFFERENCE OR NOT? GOT DIFFERENCE OR NOT?!!

But I can't comment much cuz I ate soft shell crabs, prawns, and shishamos with eggs inside. But there are exceptions to things luh. Some things are meant to be eaten, some are not. Cannot be picking all the eggs out before cooking.

Cruel pictures.

Cruel.

Sick.

Cruel.

IT'S A SICK WORLD! URGH!!

KTHNXBYE!

Time & Tide Wait for No Man

2011-05-31T00:06:00.004+08:00

Sometimes don't you just wish you can stop the clock and keep up with the pace the rest of the Earth is moving at?

It's so fast, so hectic. You lost track of times and dates and history.

24 hours is not enough for me, I always rant to my friends. I just don't have time for anything else. To the extent of sacrificing my sleep-time just so I can do my own stuff. I don't have time for myself. To catch my breath. To even look back and reflect.

Yes, talk about time management. People can manage it, I don't see why not me, actually. Seriously. And honestly.

But anyway, I just know it's never too late to make my life better. It's never too late to be a happier and more optimistic person.

It's never too late to change and be a better person. No matter how good I am now already, I know I could still be better.

It's all up to oneself, isn't it?

I know I am not that weak of a girl. I've been through enough to rate myself as strong. Well, relatively. And I've emerged tougher than before each time after a downfall.

It's this transition that's making me so restless and frustrated. This shift. From a student to a working adult. The weight is much heavier than anyone can expect. The conditions are much harsher. Generally speaking, that's reality. And if I am not going to adapt to it asap, I'll be the one losing out. To anyone. In any area. At any place. At any time.

I know I will be conditioned. But it takes time. So to anyone it may concern who is in my life experiencing my moodswings, I'm sorry but do be patient. I need time. I was this young school girl just early last year, and now I shoulder more responsibilities.

Optimism. Self-assurance. Positivity. Discipline. Actually it all boils down to positivity.

Enough of complaining about time. I am supposed to complain about school.

Ya, there you have it, working and studying at the same time. Bonkers.

I'm so failing my Econs. And if I fail, then I'll just move on. I don't need a degree. I want it.

But still, have to study for mathematics exam which is on this Wednesday.

I am so very thankful I have my boyfriend to accompany all the nights that I was studying. I'm totally letting him down if I don't pass. And I was so frantic (cuz time was running out to study for the bloody econs), that I neglected him a little (I think). Haha. Then he was just there, unconditionally accompanying me everywhere. *heart melts*

AHHHHH. I so wanna snuggle up in an armchair with plushies and green tea and read novels. I could start reading self-improvement books. When was the last time I read?! :( I can't even remember how the library system works anymore. How to borrow books when I don't have a student card eh? My I/C?

Anyway the other time I was showering and thinking how opposites can attracts. Which brought my mind straight to the magnets which are red and black on each half, to differentiate north and south.

I was actually meaning people of opposite personalities. Or rather, people who don't have any similarities getting together and all.

But ya, wonderful mind of mine. Magnets.

But anyway, there's nothing bad about people of different mindset getting together right. Cuz after all, after squabbles and disagreements and arguments, you learn lessons, more insights and more perspectives. Then understanding. Rather than just be contained in your own world of beliefs and values.

But the term opposites are not really very ideal I think. Sound like they totally will not get along together.

The term complements will be nicer.

They are different. Can be very different too. But when put together, they just go well with each other, fit well, and blends well etc. Like you see, cheese and pizza. Pillows and bolsters. Martell and green tea. HAHA.

Complements.

Like 2 things needed to complete a whole. Or you can see it as something that completes or makes perfect.

SOUNDS SO MUCH NICER OMG!

BABY, WE ARE COMPLEMENTS! ♥ ♡

LOOKING FORWARD TO MIRI!

SHUT DOWN AND UNWIND.

You know you're in love when you can't fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.

2011-05-17T18:00:00.001+08:00

♥

Our anniversary, on 3rd May, sky-dining at Mount Faber.

I love you smile, boy. :)

Bird's eye view of everything. Universal Studios looked really small from up there. Couldn't believe I got tired walking around the park that time.

Look at the treetops, look like lots of broccolis together. I'm still very amused by them!

Dinner. Pumpkin soup wasn't to our liking I guess. Tasted like burnt something. But I was fungry, and the time to the next change of course was long. So I sort of finished the burnt orange goo in the bowl. Then the portions of the subsequent courses were so small. =.=

Night was pretty.

I really like relishing in moments like this. Baby, hope you had enjoyed yourself too. Heehee. ♥

You see, anniversaries are things to be celebrated. They are to commemorate the past 365 days you and the other person have had together, including those shitty days when you both make the shit out of each other's shitty lives. HAHAHA. And during that red-letter day, you guys will press the 'CTRL-ALT-DEL' button and end-task all the previous unhappiness and shitty things that happen, and then press 'F5' to embrace another year of happy and shitty things altogether again. (Don't just force shut down. It's damaging!)

If shitty things happen on the day, then bleah, shit you.

And yes, it's a yearly occurrence to just press 'F5' on a particular special day.

So ya.

♥

Me & BF Celebrated Our Birthdays @ Bintan! :D

2011-05-01T03:50:00.007+08:00

*****WARNING! PICTURE-HEAVY POST!*****

15th April to 17 April.

We had arrived at Bintan Island and checked in at Bintan Lagoon Resort.

Haha, there was this welcome dance, which I think my heart went out to the dancers, cuz they need to dance the exact similar movements each time a batch of visitors arrive at the resort lobby from the coaches.

We went to our bungalow, and got really excited even before that cuz of the private pool and the rumor that we had our own buggy. Actually, for the buggy part it was just the guys' excitement. I merely felt thrilled cuz they were so enthused. HEH.

TA-DA~

Our crib for that 3 days!

Spacious and furnished kitchen (not to mentioned clean, initally that is), cozy halls and couches, great patios and porches, terrific pool. PERFECT. Ehhh, and not to mention, a wonderful beach and sea view. ♥

It was big, really roomy and pretty, and how nice would it be if that was my house, cuz it's duper conducive and if that was my house, I'll be looking forward to coming home every night.

Anyone begs to differ?

Indeed! Our own buggy. Heh. No doubt, Nick was the one who wanted to drive it immediately.

That would be the only form of transport within the resort for lazy-asses like us, but ya, within the resort only, and no, we didn't drove to town with that buggy. I reckoned we wouldn't even make it to town with the battery.

The greatest reason why having a private pool was so excellently marvelous, swimming at anytime of the day/night, doing anything inside of it, ALL IN OUR PRIVACY! Superb. *Happy all over again at the thought*

Went to a club in the resort to chill out at night. I needed a kick-back at that time. Was facing long hours in the day with work and the Service Nite dance practice.

That's me and Mich camwhoring away. Now what did I say years ago, if you put 2 girls and a camera together? Hmmmm.

Here's Nickberry. When he was still sober.

And when I was still perfectly sober too.

But I had drink, drank, drunk, UNEXPECTEDLY. I left a trail of puke from the club back to the house while sitting on the buggy back. Not a very proud thing to do or to remembered for. But still. Priceless.

Well, I really let my hair loose. Literally too.

Next day, headed to town for a little sub-urban shopping experience, and a massage. We had a chauffeur who appeared at our command. Hahahaha.

First time having a massage together with so many people. Noisy, and well, in a way, memorable. Still recalled the disposable underwears we had to wear, and which tore on first wear cuz most of us couldn't really fit in them.

Walked, walked, walked. Bintan was really hot and sunny!

Chilled and unwind back at the house...

Haha, I mentioned we could do anything at our own privacy in the pool, well, how often do you get to drink and smoke whilst soaking in the pool under the sunlight/moonlight. Really sounds like absolutely CARTE BLANCHE. Freedom. (Y)

You see, if you have a pool of your own at your own house at the backyard, you wouldn't wanna smoke and drink in the pool lest you dirtied it and you have to have it cleaned up. And if you were at a condominium's pool or a public pool, you couldn't do so, obviously. So if you combined the best of both worlds, a private pool but you don't have to clean it despite anything, isn't that gonna be fantastic?

A walk at the beach with Nick boy. I like the sea. I like 一望无际的大海. :)

And it's really 一望无际. Endless.

At the restaurant by the sea before our own BBQ.

Sweet friends we have. ;)

Happy birthday to me and my boy!

(Our birthdays fall just 3 days apart by the way. ;D)

Fortunately the buggy wasn't destroyed that night. Look how they handled and operated it. Tsk tsk.

BBQ at the backyard and more pool activities!

Didn't get enough of the pool even till the very last day of our stay. :P

Going-home time!

Finally,

And so, despite the close but failed and unsuccessful encounters of wrecking the buggy in the 2 days, the buggy was still, nonetheless, driven into the pond on the day of check-out.

NICE SHORT HOLIDAY WE HAD.

I treat that as a really nice getaway, and yessss, enjoyed myself so thoroughly, I so want to stay longer! :(

SIGH. Miss those times already.

Universal Studios Singapore

2011-04-30T03:04:00.000+08:00

Remember when I said at the start of April, "HAPPY APRIL!!!", and that "happy happy April to look forward to", because it's the end of my job probation, gonna get my own signing authorization and limit already, it's the start of my studies again, there's OCBC Service Nite, there's my birthday, there's the bf's birthday etc?

Well. It's the end of April already. I continued my job scope with the new teller limit, I am 2 weeks into my bridging of my UOL course now, OCBC Service Nite is over now, me and my boy's birthdays are over too already.

And.

HUR.

It's going to be MAY. There's going to be the election, which I am not following, not even closely. (Sorry, it's my first time needing to vote and all, and I don't have a habit of following such politics. Not that I don't deem it as importance okay.) There's the end of my bridging for maths and economics, which means the start of the exam. Then what. What else happens in May? I don't know.

But April had been great. One of the great things is the trip to Universal Studios, with my dear boy and his family. Okay, USS is soooo overrated. But. Okay luh. Not bad.

But I absolutely love the Victoria's Secret at RWS. ♥

Pictures from USS.

I love all the architecture there! It's so so so nice and so un-Singapore. HAHA. Not that Singapore isn't nice on the whole. But the only thing is Singapore-ish is, cannot smoke unless at designated areas - the green umbrellas.

I will never take roller coasters. Don't ask why. But the most daring park ride I've ever taken is the Space-Shot from Genting. That's all. But I only took that after I've convinced myself it is just 5 seconds of that drop that it's gonna give me a feeling of dying. I don't like to feel like dying. I would rather just die.

I like the Egyptian area!

Ya, not a lot of photo-snapping, but it'll be nice if my eyes can capture images.

Oh, May will be the month of me and my loverboy's one year anniversary. Hmmm.

❤

UPDATE ON OCBC SERVICE NITE 2011 :))))

2011-04-26T02:17:00.006+08:00

Him: "This one I think is lymph note swollen."
Me: "What's lymph? I thought lymph is a maggot."
Me: "Right? Lymph is a baby cockroach right?"
After a while...
Me: "Oh shit. That's nymph."
Me: "HAHA. I can't believe where my biology knowledge went to. Lymph is some blood thing."
Me: "HAHAHA. Maggot."
After a while...
Me: "Heyyyy laugh with me! I'm laughing so hard to myself now in my room!"

HAHAHAHAHAHA.

I can't believe myself can...

And my bf wasn't even laughing I think. I was just amusing myself.

They should have a Dumbest Qiaoyu Jokes, you know. Like those "Dumb Blonde Jokes" thingy.

Just that I'm not blonde. But I'm still as dumb.

OMFG.

Anyway,

OCBC Service Nite 2011!

We went to Yishun early in the morning for our hair and all. Hallelujah, didn't have to go branch. Wahaha.

Then we headed to Orchid Country Club in Jingbin's van. And we gals, looked like we're being trafficked. Haha. Even played along for the whole journey.

Reached.

Camwhored with Lynn's camera. Seriously. Her camera is so nice to camwhore with.

Sexy Valenti girls~

Me and Jzeying. :)

The crowd started coming in, there's Lady Gaga. Haha. Cute or not? OMG.

And they made us sign on the big poster with our faces on it. Haha. Tell me, got feeling of a celebrity or not? :P

And then... Jingbin was the champion to that night's performance! WAAA. NICEEE~ North Cluster FTW.

We get overall champion also. Yes. North Cluster. (Y)

Nice experience. My first experience of this sort with OCBC. Love it.

But I wouldn't want to perform in the Service Nite anymore, voluntarily. So sorry to say that! Not that I didn't like it or what. But, it's so tiring and time-consuming. But if I was appointed to go then BO BIAN. Please, young people, please come to my branch so I don't have to be the only young teller in the branch.

Here's a QUICKIE!

2011-04-23T02:19:00.000+08:00

I've started school!

University of London at SIM. Banking and Finance. Doing bridging now. God knows why I have chosen that course.

Omg, it's been a year. Haha. Feels nice to step into a campus again. :D

And hence, so freaking busy. But kinda enjoying the hectic-ness.

Outdated: Qihui's birthday last month. :/

And anyway, apart from work and school, there was the OCBC Service Nite on Thursday, and which me and the girls from North cluster were so busy rehearsing our dance. The Service Nite was sooo hyped and great. Our hot and sexy pictures soon! :P

And yea, I just turned 22 about 6 days ago, 3 days before my dear boy turned 22 himself too. We had gone to Bintan last weekend, and wahaha. Epic fun. Pictures soon too! Tons and tons of pictures. I SOOO wanna see how those pictures montage will look down here. ^^

Went to JB last night and "sort-of-partied", if you count standing around and watching weirdos pretend that they know how to shuffle.

Loved the company. :)

Crazy, mad people.

Waiting for Sunday's Universal Studios! Gotta sleep. Ciao. ♥

And now this is a quick, little something for you...

2011-04-13T00:55:00.001+08:00

updated but outdated.

2011-04-01T00:26:00.004+08:00

Bf's cuzzie's wedding at Puteri Pacific in JB. :D That was the thing I was so excited about, cuz I got to wear a pretty dress. And I love pretty dresses. =.=

Anyway it was a great wedding. And Iva and Prekash had looked so lovingly perfect. :)

In the hotel room preparing. Kiko was so cute. Wanted to paint her nails as well. Think she's gonna be a little vainpot-ish next time too. HEH.

Sneaking away with the boy for a little breather.

Reception.

Bf with his cousins. All looked so fine.

Love this picture. HEH.

My suave bf. ♥

High...

High.

OH MAN. I SO LOVE EVENTS LIKE THIS.

Everyone's get-together. So hyped.

Then I couldn't get enough of my get-up and dress. Lol.

I do not look like a tranny ok. Whoever who said that. Hahahaha.

And look! This is so kawaii. Kiko falling asleep. That was on our way back to Singapore.

And then the both of them.

A common pillow! Wahaha.

Don't it just make you go "AWWwww..."?

Some pictures with credits to ATLS Photography.

Anyway,

HAPPY APRIL! :)

End of my job probation.

Gonna get my own signing authorization and limit already.

Start of my studies again.

OCBC Service Nite.

My birthday.

Bf's birthday.

Happy happy April to look forward to.

I FEEL SAD THAT I AM NOT UPDATING TWITTER LATELY!

2011-03-18T01:23:00.000+08:00

EVERYONE SHOULD TWEET!

THERE ARE BOUND TO HAVE THINGS TO RANT ABOUT EVERY SINGLE BLOODY DAY.

You know you can't keep everything bottled inside yourself.

And. It's always better to spare your partners or friends from the agony of listening to every minor rantings in your daily life.

It's a must to listen luh, partners. (HAHA) But if the plaintiff talks about even the number of hairs he/she is growing on her armpits, then fuck it.Well, but if you, you, you wanna tell someone about how dilated your pores are, or how hot the weather is every now and then, or how full you are after a meal, then, Twitter is great.

You can even take a picture of your every meal, and your every grain of rice and post it on Twitter.

HAHAHAHA.

Not that I do that, please.

TWEET NOW!

And follow me here, yo!

Now, now, now.

2011-03-10T00:06:00.002+08:00

♥

What on earth did I think about before I meet you?

2011-03-01T02:19:00.000+08:00

Miss you.

♥

WHEEEE!

2011-02-19T18:25:00.001+08:00

I'm in Malaysia now!

For my bf's cuzzie's wedding! Just thought I could do an advanced entry and have it automatically published at a stipulated time so that I won't be too missed.

LOVES! ♥

Time & Tide Wait For No Man!

2011-02-17T23:12:00.014+08:00

DO YOU KNOW I'VE BEEN SO BUSY I ALMOST PULLED MY HAIR OUT IN DESPAIR AND DESPERATION?!

Greatness. I had a rather dramatic month-to-date.

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FIRST BIG THING.

Yes, it was a freaking Chinese New Year month.

But I freaking got admitted into the hospital at 4am on Day 1 of CNY.

Let's see, having neglected my excruciating kidney pains for days (not knowing I had kidney infection), and thus leading to a high fever on CNY eve. Well, I think I had my highest fever in my (going to) 22 years, as much as I can remember. And the kidney pains were so bad, I couldn't stand straight for the days I was in agony, and I thought I had a recollection of the story, Hunchback of Notre Dame.

Go figure.

And then to think many creeps thought kidney = too much beer and alcohol. Hahaha. NOOOOO.

And then I was put on drips.

The worst part of the whole hospital stay.

I HATE INJECTIONS, JABS, BLOOD TESTS, ANYTHING THAT REQUIRES INSERTION OF NEEDLES OR TUBES!

I swore a "fuck" in front of the doctor, then he was like, "Are you okay?" And I snapped a NO a him. Oh my tian.

Super horrible hospital food. NO BAK KWA! NO WATERMELONS! (Fyi, I was SOOO craving for watermelons I didn't know why, I had Jiaming wheel me down to the food court to look for watermelons.)

Okay luh, actually not that bad, but you know when you're in hospital, you wouldn't have much appetite anyway. So whatever food that came, turned me off.

And yes, Jiaming and Shiaowei visited me. Very sweet of them, really. Where was NICCCCKKKK?! Hahahaha.

I got an angpao from them for missing out my bai-nians for day 1 and 2!

Look at the words on the angbao! CUTE.

And cuz of the stupid sodium chloride drips, I suffered from horrible water retention for the first time in my life too. My right hand was swollen and fat from the arms right till the fingers.

I love to see that 48kg on the weighing scale that I stood on! But it was just water inside me! And my fingers were fat, my tummy was fat. OH my tummy was so fat my belly button became an oval shape.

OH WELL. My bai-nian day officially started on day 3. Sad to the max.

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SECOND BIG THING.

Hmmm. And then there was the PTBO training at OCBC. Which just ended and all of us were dispersed to our own branches! I miss my fellow training mates already!

Last day at Atlantis Room.

POP lo!

With our lovely trainer, Doreen! :)

Bai-nian at Gen's house.

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THIRD BIG THING.

Qiuling left for Australia for her studies. Last meet-up with her.

Gonna save up and hopefully go to Australia and visit her. :D

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FORTH BIG THING.

14 February, at Marina Bay Sands. ♥

Love his silly grin. ♥

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FIFTH BIG THING.

Congrats to Cathleen and Chun Seng for their marriage too! :)

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SIXTH BIG THING.

COMING UP! COMING UP!

THIS WEEKEND!

EXCITED EXCITED EXCITED!

P.S. Can't wait to open my own counter! (Y)

Super, super busy.

2011-02-10T02:51:00.004+08:00

WILL BE RIGHT BACK.

2011-01-24T01:37:00.003+08:00

She's staring at me
I'm sitting wondering what she's thinking
Nobody's talking 'cause talking just turns into screaming
And now it's I'm yelling over her, she yelling over me
All that that means is neither of us is listening

And what's even worse?
That we don't even remember why we're fighting

So both of us are mad for nothing,
fighting for nothing,
crying for nothing.
But we won't let it go for nothing,
no not for nothing.
This should be nothing,
to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

And it gets me upset
Girl when you're constantly accusing
Askin' questions like you already know
We're fighting this war
Baby when both of us are losing
This ain't the way that love is supposed to go

Whoa, what happened to workin' it out?
We've fall into this place
Where you ain't backin' down and I ain't backin' down
So what the hell do we do now?

It's all for nothing,
fighting for Nothing,
crying for Nothing
But we won?t let it go for Nothing,
no not for Nothing,
this should be Nothing
to a love like what we got

Oh baby, I know sometimes it's gonna rain
But baby, can we make up now?
'Cause I can't sleep through the pain
Can't sleep through the pain

Girl, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
No, I don't wanna go to bed mad at you
And I don't want you to go to bed mad at me
Oh no no no

Oh, baby this love ain't gonna be perfect
And just how good it's gonna be
We can fuss and we can fight
As long as everything's all right between us
Before we go to sleep
Baby, we're gonna be happy, oh

@ Suikiya

2011-01-21T00:14:00.006+08:00

I could always go in anytime to whack the shabu-shabu. ♥

It's so mad delicious!

I should try once, NOT to take so much other miscellaneous food, and just order 10 of each shabu-shabu. All 3, the beef, the pork and the chicken is so OMFG nice, but my best is the chicken. If I want to get more proteins, skip the yucky protein shake or whatever. GO WHACK SHABU-SAHBU.

♥ PHYLLIS AND NICOLE~

"Hey, the carpet is so green I feel like I'm sitting on a green pasture." HAHAHA. How nice.

And what's that again? The conversation?

Phyllis: (looking at her camera and trying out the different effects and mood.)
Phyllis: "Let's use the 'forest' effect mode and take pictures."

Nicole: "There's no green forest for us to take with."

Me: "Ya lo."
(Chuckled as I thought about the green pasture carpet we saw before that)

*paused*
Me: "But there's a forest here."*gestured*
Nicole: (LAUGHED)
Me: (paused and thinking)
Me: "No wait, it WAS a forest, but now it's a desert."
(Told Phyllis excitedly and laughed, alright.)
Me: "And not far away from the desert, there's an oasis."

HAHAHHAHAHA.

Go figure.

Phyllis is going Korea for 6 months for some exchange program. Lucky her. Kimchi for her for half a year, I bet she won't wanna order kimchi soup base when she have the promised Sukiya again with us. HEH.

SOME UPDATES ABOUT MYSELF. I am seriously rest-deprived. :/ No longer the strong owl who can tahan 1 week without sleep to study for end of year exams.

I studied for a night, had a 45-min shut-eye that night and then I was so dazed already. The only thing that was not happening was me drooling while sleeping. Well, I slept everywhere. The worst was I was talking, and helping someone to check her answers for her math questions. Then my eyes closed unexpectedly, and I fell asleep like this for about 2 seconds, before I jolted up cuz I felt some action of the book closing. PAISEH TTM!

And then, okay, I slept early that very night my first cert test finished. (Much more cert tests to come. :/ )

So yesterday, I went to my branch for the very first time. How will I know how tiring I will be. Zzzzz.

Reached home early, but after dinner, I carried my hair conditioner bottle in my hand, stood up to go shower, and then I passed my bed, and thought okay, I'll lie down for 5 minutes. Then I dozed off, waking up only 3 hours later. I slept with my make-up and contact lens on can!?!?! And I just recovered from my eye infection less than 24 hours ago.

♥ SORRY MISTER BOYFRIEND! :( That I fell asleep!)

◇ ◇ ◇

And anyway, I'm playing Nightclub City now, as in for the past week or so. HAHAHA. The characters are so cute.

This time round, no real cash involved! *SHEEPISH*

I can plan stupid and unrealistic parties, I can ask my bartenders to perform juggling tricks and wow the customers, which, I don't understand they seem to like it so much they tip me loads, and the stunts are the same for the millionth time. I also can dedicate songs, lower my boost to make people on the dancefloor happier, hire entourage people who are so horribly dressed I don't bother to change their clothes, invite celebrities, hire bouncers and have jerks kicked out.

Look closer and try to spot. I even have Foosball and Pool tables in my club!

Check out the purple water dispenser lookalike thingy at the bottom right:

They are so called the 'drink storage' which allows me to have more drinks so I don't have to keep refilling them. Refilling all my drink storage before exiting the game also can let me earn some money while I'm offline. THAT'S NOT THE POINT. The point is, that is the only thing I hate about this game. Cuz. They are so ugly. And it MUST be displayed in the club to be used. Don't you think they look like some magic potion or something? -__-"

Okay, virtually, I owned a great club, and I'm earning big bucks. YAY.

NIGHTS.

My Sty!

2011-01-10T00:03:00.005+08:00

I was packing my room the other day, really had the intention organizing the clothes and the wardrobe part. Only.

Eh, don't judge. It already took me almost the whole day, omg. And how happy was I, to be able to toss away some really old and useless things, which I didn't care or bother to throw the last few times I get my wardrobe into shape.

Ciao, some parts of my bedchamber which needed some packing.

I found a few cardigans in my heap of clothes. And well, there are LOTS of crochets in my clothes please, I wonder why. There will be people saying they look so Ah-ma, for sure. But well, actually they don't look that bad on me, compared to on the hanger. In other words, the cardigans look nice on me. Serious!

The cashmere one at the right is super comfy, I swear! Both from Mango. I guess that's a useful find for me. At least I can still wear them.

And well, look what I had found too.

My favourite school bag from lower secondary!

Muahahahaha. Till now, I still think that's a very nice backpack you know! The colours clashed a little, but are nice. It's comfortable too. The brand is 37 Degrees. HAHAHAHA. SOOOO nostalgic for people my age, maybe. At that time, brands like OP, 37 Degrees, Billabong all these surf brands all were so popular. OP especially! Haha. I digged their wallets and pencil cases! So affordable, sporty-looking and nice. LOL. And then there are other bag brands like Jansport, Deuter blah blah.

Like, hello? These should be the brands that you secondary 1 and 2 people should be using. Not Gucci or Longchamp. -.- I swear I saw those before on secondary school girls. Like, what were they trying to prove?

Speaking of OP, this bag is from OP! Hahahaha. I can't believe I loved the bag to bits that time. It's so tacky. HAHAHHAHA.

OMG. Comes this one! This net sling bag. It was a hit at my lower secondary times too!

There were colours like pink, black, white, aiya, you name it luh. But it was so cumbersome,trust me, everywhere I went, their edges would hook onto the 'net-ty' layer of that bag. Zzzzz. But I still liked it. THAT TIME. LAST TIME.

Then during upper secondary school, I started using bags from Zinc. Those khaki canvas ones, which we would deliberately lower the length of the bag till it was at our backsides. (The lower, the better, ain't it?) Hahahahha. That's the way luh. No Longchamps, no Kate Spades, no showing-offs. *Sighs in bliss* I had such a healthy secondary school life.

But it was sad that only when I were in my 2nd or 3rd year in poly, then those colourful and cute backpacks started coming alive. I mean, I wanted to carry that! I can't do so in poly... Actually can luh, but I don't think my dressing in poly will allow that. Haha.

But oh well, whatever, I have to find a day to pack the rest of my room. Starting training soon anyway. Gonna get myself busy.

Time to sleep. Kthnxbye. ♥

My Fanaticism Over Mall World

2011-01-05T18:29:00.003+08:00

Once again, I am hooked on one of the Facebook games. Damn.

Long time ago, it was Pet Society. But I gave that up cuz I realized how hard it was to level up to attain extra rooms for my house. And how tedious it was to visit your friends one by one just to earn the measly bit of experience and money. And I resorted to using cash. =.= For a game.

Then it was Restaurant City. There was this crazy period of time when I played in class during poly and everyone was requesting everyone for trading of ingredients. Super funny to think of it now. I stopped playing cuz my restaurant had already became super pretty, and then vegetable plots started coming in, and I'm like so sick of planting them (cuz at that time I was playing Country Story too, and I don't see the point in planting and harvesting at two games.)

Then Country Story. I worked so hard just to buy the sheep and cows and chickens! Then my farm was superbly designed too. I stopped playing cuz I had purchased largest farm-size, out of greed, and it was so big, that my farm became disoriented and hard to manage, and I was lazy to re-decorate the farm, so I gave up.

Followed by Home Inn. I had like, 7 storeys! WOW! Sky-scraper indeed. LOL! It's so high that I couldn't zoom out enough to screen-shot it. And... OMFG, I FREAKING USED CASH! (If I am not wrong. I have like, so many jewels.)

And then Cafe World. That was madness. Food cooked up in 6 hours time, I had set alarm, woke up in the middle of the night, just to serve it, so it won't turn 'stale'. This one I can confirm I didn't use cash (I THINK!). I painstakingly played till I have 3 million Cafe dollars. I also don't know how so. But, kudos. And then came the part when I had bought every furniture and ornament I can buy for my cafe, and that leveling up was a chore already, and I stopped.

And there was Gangster City. Wow, this was the game I stayed up all night for, just to be ranked the number 1 gangster among my friends! Haha, at that time, there was only a few people playing, and I stuck so closely to the updates! I even leveled up faster than they could create more missions. -.- Look at the amount of money I have! And look at the shut-down properties. :( They used to be mine. MINE!

Roller Coaster Kingdom lasted for a while. I had a awesome theme park. But, damn. Seeing this means it had been eons since I played. Haha. No more supported! Zynga games, you drool!

And then there's games like Bejeweled Blitz, Icy Tower, Typing Maniac and Word Challenge, which weren't so bad cuz they weren't like role-playing and they don't continue on day by day.

And then slowly, I got back on Pet Society, cuz of the cute furniture and stuffs that I can decorate my pet home with. Look at my rooms! I think I have spent tons of cash on it overall!

And then NOW, whilst playing Pet Society, I have this oh-my-goodness ardency over MALL WORLD. Like, I think it's one of the best games! Apart Pet Society. Mall World and Pet Society are the only 2 games I used cash on! YES! WTF?!?!?! (OH MY TIAN, looking at the amount of coins I have for Country Story, I am starting to think if I had used cash to play too! WTH.)

Okay, okay. Mall World is a distinctly silly game, and that's undeniable. It is time-consuming, and doesn't make sense half of the time. But still.

My shop which I spent so much money on!

There's actually nothing much you can do.

There's like fashion shows to watch and vote. Real stupid. But I do so. =.=

And then there's the Wheel Of Fashion. (Oh what a tacky name, please.) And that is like, the most exciting thing I think.

And then going shopping. Final freedom man. I can buy anything I want. :D

Or tending to the shop, and watching weird 'customers' come in.

I wish there was like facial expressions that we can make on our being! I would have made this face. -.- Like seriously, why is she even dressed like this.

And then there's my closet, which contain tons and tons of clothes. Cuz, I'm filthy rich. Heh. Virtually.

No one would understand why anyone will buy 4 lipstick shades of similar colours. I swear they are not much of a difference when applied.

But I'm rich. Haha. If I can't spend like this in the real world, I can do so in the virtual world.

And another sign of me being rich in that game is my dog.

For instance, it's pink diamond collar cost almost 4 times its price. But no choice. It was too pretty to not buy.

Anyway, earning mall dollars is easy.

I am waiting, waiting, to level up, soooo I can have a second storey to my shop.

...

...

And...

Hahaha... I finally did. And after buying so many things, I'm back to being a pauper. But it's okay. It's simple earning money.

Don't know what my walls and floors should be, so I just let it be consistent with my level 1. :D

I'm so surprised, I actually diligently screen-shot each mentioned game. So they are the most recent (or how ever you see it) images of each of the games I... Ummm. Played or once played.

I wish I can be this hardworking when it comes to anything else.

Well, Mall World is a must-play! Just use the cash cuz it's using facebook credits and you can use for other games too! Wise method. (Y)

Giving December A Wrap

2010-12-31T03:56:00.003+08:00

So, with just 5 measly posts for December, I'm gonna have one to sum the month up.

Which means giving 2010 a finale too!

Gosh, this year flies.

Like, seriously, it's not as if I'm saying it as a cliché which everyone hackneyed too, at the end of the year.

But well, I graduated, got a job, got out of the job, had a major family crisis, and then I am with that one amazing guy who was beside me while I got into and out of the job, giving me all the support I needed. ♥

I am seriously looking forward to the new year. Shit, sounds like a platitude again. Haha.

Hmmm. Lets see what happened. Headed to Malaysia over the weekend of Christmas with my boy and his family. Shopped a lot this whole month. Had one of my most horrible Powerhouse experience one fateful night.

And then.

Christmas party at Studio M with the ex-poly people.

Christmas Eve dinner with Qiuz, Zing & Lilin at Marina Square.

Junhui's birthday at Timbre, Substation and Social House.

Junhui's epic pole-dance at Social House.

Most 痛快 experience this month already. Junhui's birthday celebration I mean. HEHE.

YAAYYY. Gonna hit the sack and wake up fresh for new year eve!

Happy New Year, 大家! :)

For the one who read this (by any chance) and will understand.

2010-12-27T19:58:00.007+08:00

Hi, please do note that you are a fucking jackass that doesn't have a single fucking pinch of brain bits inside your fucking skull.

You will never know what you are wrong at.

You will never change.

You will never realize what kind of society this is now and that family should be the last group of people you should be feuding with.

Cuz you are so stuck-up and so full of yourself.

You blame the closest people for your downfall. You pick on them for your own 'glory'.

If you think you are so capable, then you shouldn't be threatening and using violence.

If you think you are so influential to the extent that people should listen to you, go ahead, spread your fucking wings and be the next Hitler or whatever fuckshit.

If you think you are oh-so-almighty, then fucking depend on your fucking self for whatever fucking thing that you fucking need!

Honestly and fucking seriously, we don't fucking owe you a single fucking shit.

Hello? You couldn't get the fact that the world doesn't revolve just around you.

Life is not just about raising voices and physical forces.

If you think you are so talented in pushing and fighting, please go be a wrestler. At least you are trying to make money for it. I applaud you.

If you think you are so good at threatening, then go be a loanshark. I won't care if you get caught or what, at least that shows you put your fucking skills to what you deemed as a good use, and that you are trying to make money. I applaud you.

You don't get what you want by threatening. You don't get things your way by shouting. And you fucking don't get what you want by pushing people to the ground like this.

We, being the closest to you, have done our best to help you in whichever we can. You do not realize that. You chose to look at our faults and blaming us for your state.

Even when things get to their worst, we are still concerned about your well-being and stuff.

It's such a sad thing you couldn't see.One day, as much as I don't want to say this, but, you are going to suffer outside. And when you do, you will realize that family is the only thing you can count on no matter what happens in your life.

And when you finally realize it, it will all be too late. We have either given up on you, hated you, or you would be dead. Ya. Dead, literally.Look at your temper, look at your attitude. I'm sorry, but you will never live a day without making a new enemy.

I used to be sorry and guilty that I have hateful thoughts about you. But now, I'm not that guilty for thinking that I rather have you out of our lives. Not that I'm going to kill you. Out of our lives meaning you can just severe ties with all of us. I think we would be better off without you.

Take a break from your ego trip.

No wait, I wish that is your ego. But this is not. I don't know what you've become. You're a mad fucker.

And I so want to hold you down to the ground, spit in your face, and make you apologize to all the hurt and anger you've caused amongst us and to us, and then making you feel so sorry and telling you, no, you're not forgiven and we still want you away.

You know we can have all the patience in the world. But cuz we battle you this bloody arsehole, you've made us lose all the patience and love we had for you.

So if one day. If one day you realize you couldn't find love anywhere else, don't be surprised that we won't be a bit least concerned for you. Cuz you made us give up on you. You made us who we are.

My dear, and in case you aren't a least bit aware of the thing KARMA. No need to say much about this. It's clearly explained from the word itself.

I can't believe we have the same blood running in us.

2 words to describe you. Inhumane. Fucked-up.

1 word for your life. Gone.

2010-12-17T17:39:00.003+08:00

Apropos of my previous entry about the SMRT Jingle on MRT trains (click here), I saw something that it's kinda funny.

HAHAHAHA!

It's like quite funny, and it cracked me up. And anway thank God I seldom hear the song on trains anymore. But maybe that's because I seldom take the trains already. HEH.

You know what annoys me lately? It's that I don't have my whole wardrobe with me, and I don't have my whole collection of accessories, and shoes, and accessories. And that I often go out under-accessorized. And me having to choose from the limited clothes I have in my... Paperbag?

Yea, I'm not at home.

And I'm bored. Want to work and study.

7 years and counting.

2010-12-07T00:41:00.003+08:00

Hi babe, I love you since forever and you'll always be a part of me.

Thanks for being there, and not there, for being sweet, and also a pain in the ass sometimes. But no worries, I accept you for who you are, good or bad, fat or slim, forehead or no. :D Heh.

Seriously luh, she's one of the few who will cam-whored with me like there's no tomorrow. Just look at the following picture. Who in the right minds will pose wearing like a pair of zebras in the dark fitting room, and still smile, into the mirror somemore. -___-"

And she accepts the unglam side of me... Propping my legs up on the chair for comfort in McDonalds, Jurong Point. I highlighted that out cuz, well, the outlet at JP is always crowded.

And, hahahaha, no need to comment on these. Went to a funny seminar. Okay, not exactly a funny seminar, but a seminar which we found funny. HAHAHA. EPIC. I shall not disclose much here. :D

She also taught me how to use my camera's color swap. MY camera. Which I have had for over 2 years. Lol.
She's a brainiac. I'm a maniac.

I love you Brainiac.

Love always, Maniac ♥

The Revolution of Apple.

2010-12-05T23:22:00.001+08:00

HAHAHAHA!

Lil Update

2010-12-05T22:10:00.001+08:00

JOB HUNTING!

And probably gonna go study. I must not let myself slack to the extreme. HAHA.

A couple of weeks back, stayed at Fairmont Hotel with the boyfriend's family.

A little late, but happy December.

Been away from home for about 3 weeks. Now that I'm back, got to pack my cupboard seriously.

Seeing my boyfriend's messy room everyday makes me want to do something about mine. Haha. Luckily the only area that needs to be organized is my wardrobe lo. I swear I'll be surprised by the pieces of tops and dresses that I haven't seen in months.

Well, make it a shopping experience then. Haha.But seriously, how to spruce up with the limited space. I shouldn't have shopped and bought THAT much of clothes in the first place right.

'Nuff said.

What should I do to make this year end great? Hmmm...

Angry till it hurts

2010-12-04T03:33:00.000+08:00

Don't know. Angry. Twitter is my ranting medium. Read, if you want, from bottom to up.

And right after all these, in the middle of writing this post, my Vaio shut down by itself again, punctuating my fury.

The night couldn't get any worse.

And then when I want to just calm down while starting up the lappy again, by lying on my bed, I felt dusts. And seeing the number of weeks I weren't home, I am not confident to say those are not dusts.

Just, seriously, fml.

This is freaking funny. I need to post this up.

2010-12-02T19:42:00.002+08:00

Seen on one of my friend's picture albums in Facebook.

VERY HILARIOUS.

I'M LAUGHING NOW.

HAHAHAHA.

Earth Is Full. Go Home.

2010-12-02T19:01:00.003+08:00

Tell me, what is with people who have extraordinary long display names in Facebook?

I think this is quite a manifest thing on Facebook already. Especially among the younger people. HEH. I can expect to see this from girls and guys from the age group of 13 to 17 luh.

Well, if you are above the age of 21 and you still put names like "Chloe isveryvexedpleasedonotdisturbher Ng", you got to go find a ledge from a 20-storey building and jump down. =.=

Like, seriously, what is going on through their minds?

WAIT. Worse still. If there are more than 3 names in their name. Like, WTF?! What IS your name exactly?

"Chloe Rachelleflorencedawn Xiaomeimeisonehygerger Hatesyou"

Why don't you just type your full profile in your name, that's even better. And maybe could earn the title of like, hmmm, the longest display name in Facebook history?

Something like this,

"Chloeqiaoyung Twentyoneyearsoldbirthdayisinapril Livesinsingapore Lovesdavidguettaandmyrelationshipstatusisit'sveryveryverycomplicated AndIlovetoshopdanceandhangoutwithfriends."

BOTH THUMBS UP!

No, no, I'm not saying it's wrong or what to do so. But tell me, just tell me please, what is going on, cuz perhaps I'm really missing something in your generation.

*SLAPS FOREHEAD AND MUTTERS OH MY TIAN*

God must love stupid people. He made so many. And yes, Earth is full. Go home.

I Have a Sympathetic Past.

2010-11-26T00:50:00.008+08:00

HMMM. My archived entries are, indeed, very, very interesting. Really.

I have came by, through my previous posts, one of the 2 most perturbed entries. Haha. The first one was written on 7 April 2009. And it wasn't even posted! WOW. -.- It was just a draft in my account.

Haha. Proof.

Well, I wrote it like this:

* * * * *

I don't believe in love anymore.

Slowly, I feel I will swear by my gals. Inevitably and naturally.

But I can see how self-destructive it will be... So I really drop that thought for real.

This is not the point now.

Fyi, the term 'love' used here is generic. It is not referring to just the opposite sex. It's non-exclusive, referring also to family, friends, humanity, just generally luh.

Would rather watch drama off a boring computer screen than having it happen right before my eyes. It happens all the time. Just that time round, I heard it before I saw it. Deafening as the glass crashed down. God knows what was being thrown. I only saw the shatters. I was surprisingly calm, but inside of me, I was screaming. I wanted to run out. I wanted to scream. I wanted to break down and sob. But I was quiet.

Too quiet.

And being quiet and calm had emphasized the empty space beside me meant to be filled. There was only a solitude. An outline. But it was just empty. Ironically goes, it's there, but it's isn't.

Thinking how people who write inspiring books go, "you live life by walking the hard way" or "through hardship, you learn to embrace life more in future" or something along that line.

Sound like giving chemotherapy to a forth-stage cancer patient. Only prolongs his painful life, giving him false hopes of life. Or lets not look at how these phrases only give false hopes to people. Let's just say people, at least for me I think, listen to these phrases a thousand million times, that they have become cliches. They aren't even inspirational or enlightening enough for me right now, let alone being beneficial.

Fair enough, everyone has their own problems. Even the richest or the prettiest person have theirs. Maybe when some people are having their hard times, others will be silently mocking in their hearts?

* * * * *

HMMM. WOW. WAS I HAVING DEPRESSION THAT TIME! Lol. Some family related problems then.

And, of course encouraging quotes do work! There's something about the mind and the words that eyes see, and the stuff that ears hear that I couldn't explain. But it works.

The second one went like this. This was posted earlier this year.

* * * * *

Adapted or written, make a choice yourself.

Sometimes, we find ourselves doing things that are unimaginable. Things that you never expect yourself to be doing. For the moment, you find yourself losing control over the things that you say or do. Cuz at that point of time, you just want to do what you want to do.

After you think it back, you realize how low you've stooped to try to get what you want. You've lost your pride. (Not as if pride is a very important thing. Pride is often over-rated. But still.) But the other party continues to let you be stooping like a dog, refusing to give in despite you and your pleads. Pleads that will cause you to think afterwards, "What the hell was I thinking at that time?"

The other party don't even want to give in out of sympathy. And you want to compare who's being more hurting?

What can be more hurtful, if the other party is someone whom you thought value you, has driven you to near insanity. The other party who supposedly values you, is the reason you've resorted to pathetic means to get what you want. The someone who is supposed to be there, who is supposed to value you and your pride more than anything else, who is supposed to put your feelings in front of their own.

When I think back, I think and see from both angles. Why am I like this, and why is the other party like this.

I'm not a very unreasonable person. But certain things had just caused me to be so. Desperate.

I couldn't recognize myself.

I hear myself crying and swearing and begging. And my alter ego told me, what am I doing? Do I have to do all these to prove my point? The person who is supposed to value you, shouldn't cause you to be in this state in the first place. He or she shouldn't even have let you have to beg just to prove your point.

I hear myself crying and swearing and begging, and feel my body shaking as I propped myself precariously onto the window grills. And I remembered a sentence, no one has the right to take away my life. Not even myself.

Nobody is worth your tears. And the person who is worth your tears, shouldn't be making you cry in the first place.

I'm not trying to cause drama or make a scene. I was so emotional and agitated because I've wanted it to be resolved asap.

I'm not a very unreasonable person. I was desperately trying to prove my point, because the other party had insistently and pertinaciously not comprehend my point.

I'm not being stubborn. I keep bringing up the same thing, that one thing, over and over again, is because, that is the only one thing that I want to bring across.

One small note to sum everything up. Suppose, A is the problem. But Problem B is the cause of Problem A. And Problem A causes Problem B too. What should you be solving first? Is there a point to this controversy if both parties persist to solve the two different issues concurrently, and both parties refuse to give in? Another note is, Problem B could have been redundant if Problem A is resolved at its earlier stage.

It could have been a very minor matter.

You were very right about one thing, I've definitely kicked up one big fuss. Cuz you know it yourself, it is just a small matter.

Now I've lost my pride, my self-respect, my image. What is left of me?

What is left of me that you can value?

Now let's try a different approach.

* * * * *

Ya, if you think I've kicked up a big fuss, that means you agree that it's a bloody small matter. And if it's a bloody small matter, I don't see why you can't do the right thing at that time.

I feel hot thinking about it. I think I should drop the subject, and just bury the hatchet, for good.

"Don’t worry about the people in your past,
there’s a reason why they don’t make it to the future."

Well, if I ever see you, I will roll my eyes at you. Try it.

Fuck You (Fucking Ignore The Heart Shape Behind The Title Which Is So Inappropriate.)

2010-11-20T10:27:00.007+08:00

I know it is not referring to me. But still,

FUCK YOU, MISTER FROM GORAKHPUR!

GET A LIFE AND FUCK OFF.

Isn't there better porn to find about then search for that on Google? -.- FYI, Tila Tequila's porn would be a wiser choice than Chloe private parts. Some random Japanese porn is even better please.

And please mind your English. What happened to your apostrophe or is there really a pair of private parts call Chloe? And if there were, shouldn't it be Chloe The Private Part? (Like you know, Dora The Explorer, and not dora explorer.)

If you are a female, that makes you even more of a miserable failure and a disgrace to your family, and a more worse case than a genuine imbecile.

Whoever you are, you are already close to being a genuine case of retardity and you should feel so sad and so unfortunate that you are born and in this world. You should never be alive.

I won't care what else you searched on Google. But if it directs you to my blog, I will be disgusted.

Fuck you, again.

Genting & KL from 3rd to 7th Nov

2010-11-10T03:01:00.002+08:00

What a nice time-off I had in Malaysia, sort of like a jubilee. I'm now certain that a vacation, even a short one over the weekend or something, is essential and indispensable.

If I could tell the story in words, I wouldn't need to lug around a camera. But since I had a camera, I shall let the pictures do the talking.

Ciao, a deluge of photos from Genting and KL. ♥

I just love putting a bunch of photos together, like a collage, for viewing.

Crazy friends.

Great boyfriend.

Perfect company.

*BEAMS AT THE HAPPY PHOTOS* I want more more MORE!

Food for thoughts, cognitive content, pabulum.

2010-11-09T23:50:00.002+08:00

I adhere to the phrase,

Treat others the way you want to be treated.

It's also another way of putting yourself in others' shoes.

And that's how and why I always will try my best to treat my loved ones and the people around me how I want to be treated.

So if you want people to listen to you, listen to them.

If you need someone to be there for you when you're down, be there for them when they are down.

If you don't want your other half to be unfaithful and dishonest, then don't cheat or lie to them.

If you want people to care for you, care for them.

If you want people to love you, love people first.

If you want people to respect you, give them your respect first.

This is sense. Maybe just not common to many human beings.

I'm not saying I am a saint. But I seriously live by this principle.

Don't tell me to be cruel to people.

But then again, I get along with most people, unless they give me a reason not to.

So me being thoughtful and kind doesn't give anyone the permission to test my patience.

Everytime you want to take advantage and tyrannize or oppose someone of great benevolence and goodness, freaking think back on the phrase.

Think I've gotten my point across, short and sweet. :)

I so hope everyone can learn to love.

This entry makes absolute sense. Go figure.

And I am not particularly pin-pointing. I just hope everyone can understand. The world will be a better place. ♥

Hello November!

2010-10-31T21:55:00.001+08:00

Happy Halloween, people.

Didn't revel in the madness of Halloween last night or today! Told you I hadn't had time for costumes-preparing. It's okay. I had a pre-Halloween wingding at Night Safari last Friday. Haha.

My Halloween's Eve was spent with whiskey at Gallery Hotel's Bar84. HAHA.

ANYWAY OCTOBER'S GONE AND ALL HAIL NOVEMBER!

Get going, Monday and Tuesday! I can't wait for Wednesday when I'm meeting Wan Ting in the day for a little major catch-up, and when I'm going Genting and KL with my dear boyfriend and his crazy bunch of friends at night. ♥

Pretty slack month for me. :/ I know it's time to buck up. :'(

Baby, did I mention how amazing you are and how I simply can put down everything to just love you?

2010-10-30T03:50:00.001+08:00

I will not forget!

Stress is not something to prevent. It is something to conquer.

Sorry for being silly (real silly) at times, and thanks for being there always.

No, this is not an act of drunken stupor. :)

But I'm still wishing for McNuggets which I know will never come cuz it's left with 10 mins.

Time Not Enough.

2010-10-26T00:56:00.005+08:00

As the title suggests.

It's past 12am already, so it's a Tuesday.

Gonna have appointment with a friend in the afternoon later. Dinner with client in the evening.

Tomorrow most probably going to meet a friend.

Thursday I'll be having a roadshow at Jurong East.

Friday I'll be having another roadshow at the infamous birds-also-don't-shit-place Sengkang.

Saturday I will be meeting a prospect for lunch plus talk business. Late afternoon on the same Saturday, I will be meeting a client and her family, probably going to be at least 3 hours long.

WHERE GOT TIME?!?!

I HAVE YET TO PLAN WHAT TO DRESS UP

AS FOR HALLOWEEN!

EH, PEOPLE, DON'T TELL ME TO DRESS UP AS CHLOE

AND SAY THINGS LIKE "CHLOE, AS CHLOE." THAT'S

SO HURTING! HAHAHA.

Halloween is for everyone to dress horribly, appropriately. Period.

That's why I particularly like, I think.

Who cares if there's a strand of hair coming loose?

Who cares if I perspire and my make-up runs?

Who cares if I eat messily and got ketchup on my clothes? Cuz it will look like blood stains anyway.

It's just like how many days away only!!! Pardon my melodramatic excitement. I had dressed up for the first time last year and had tons of unforgettable fun, and I wouldn't wanna miss it this year. :D It's so awesome to see everyone dressing up and some costumes are just way superb and so on.

Last year was hell lots of unnecessary trouble too (not that it's fortuitous, I asked for it too. -.-), but this year, carte blanche.

Well, I was searching for inspiration online and came across this which I voted the coolest among all the ones I've seen that night.

TA-DAA. Corpse groom and bride.

But well, of cuz I can't be spending money on a gown, tear and dirty it, and that's it. HEH.

ANYWAY I am not going to spend much on costumes and such. If possible, I don't want to spend a cent. If I really can't make the best out of what I have in my closet, or if I really can't be creative with my D.I.Y., then I'll just go as something like last year. Bloody enough.

Let's all be bloody bloody! (Y)

Disclaimer: The following post is only out of fun, joy and laughter.

2010-10-21T16:58:00.004+08:00

Before I begin, I'm going to ask you to read the title above again. The disclaimer. If you happened to be offended, that's cuz you are guilty of it and need to change the way you speak, type and write. And in the very first place, I don't know you, so I couldn't possibly be personally attacking you. Thank you.

Alright. Yesterday on Tweeter, I saw a very interesting retweet and comment by a someone, who retweet-ed something that an AH LIAN commented about her. And well, out of curiosity, I checked the AH LIAN's profile out.

Well, she's kinda pretty, honestly. Of course with thick make-up, faux eyelashes, and done hair-do. But still, (I strongly and always believe) if you have the skills to make yourself pretty then by all means, go ahead right?

Okay, that's not the point.

Well, I went to see her tweets, got bored by the profanities and spelled-out hokkien in almost every sentence, and so, then I clicked on the her blog, hoping to see more pictures of her and perhaps learn something more about her.

Sorry, okay, I kaypo can.

Okay, so her blog is again, very pink. Neon pink, hot pink, striking pink. My eyes hurt, so I didn't stay there long enough. Plus, SURPRISINGLY, there aren't much photos of herself. I was expecting those 'hold-the-camera-above-and-peer-doefully-with-lips-puckered' those types of photos. Well, disappointed.

But I really applaud her that she still tries to type in proper English, except for hokkien words of course. So, actually, she's not that bad of an AH LIAN after all. Better than those who type like "Hihix, moi really wanna b frenzz wid euu" those types.

OH AND SHE'S ESPECIALLY EMO TOO!

This is a common trait I noticed about AH LIANS. Are they ALL emo?!?!? It's emo-emo. Not sad-emo.

Well, that should paint the picture- It is not that you are emo so you must be AH LIAN, nor you must be emo to be AH LIAN. It's cuz you are AH LIAN, hence you are emo. So to don't be emo, walk out of that AH LIAN phase earlier! (Notice I said walk out. Haha. Go figure.)

(F.Y.I. Nothing personal about myself. I was never an AH LIAN who hang out under hdb blocks in big groups, go to arcades, stare at passer-bys asking for fights, cat-fight, and I never want to have an AH BENG boyfriend and I never thought of doing something for the sake of acting cool and so on. I never scream and shout and attract attention on purpose. Seriously I was pretty much a guai-kia. 'Cept maybe I scolded FUCK earlier than my classmates cuz I had the influence of my 2 male brothers. And maybe I tucked out my uniform not cuz I wanted to look cooler, but cuz it was hot. But well, in fact, I wanted to FEEL cooler. Haha. But, ya, you know what I'm saying...)

SO.

Out of fun, for fun, I want to try to write like an AH LIAN. With proper English. Just... HEHEHE... Hokkien and vulgarities.

Situation:

My name is Zoe.
I'm a lesbian.
I woke up to a typical day.
I had just quarrelled with my girlfriend last week.
And last night I was out drinking with my friends.

* * * * *

I woke up early this morning. KNNCCB. I fucking hate mornings. Have to wake up alone. I really hate waking up alone too. Where the fuck is my baby when lao niang needed her. Why does she have to be so cruel. But then again, Fraser Fatboy and Gillian Girl Girl had talked to me last night.

Speaking of which. Last night was epic. Lao niang was dead drunk after few rounds cuz Si Gi Na and Pig came to join us last minute, and they told lao niang to drown my sorrows. Well, I did. After that I was so hungry, I kept insisting on having Burger King. But WHAT THE FUCK they didn't have that. But perhaps they didn't have it at 4.30am. Gillian had slapped me to ask me to sober up. I wanted to slap her back and shout in her face, "Li ai si, si bo? Slap lao niang?!"

Wa lao, kpkb so much.

Then I tried calling my baby again. This time for the shiok of it, lao niang did something different.

"Hello?"
"Hi."

"Zoe?"

"Ya. Hello."

"Why? Are you okay?"

*kup*

As if I'm not mad enough.

Girl, you know how much I need you. I had always believe in true love. But I guess I made the wrong choice this time round. I thought you were different. I can't believe this is actually happening to us.

No worries, I will be back on my feet. I am not gonna let myself down.

I miss Gillian Girl Girl and GZP. Going to meet them together with ManMan again.

* * * * *

Wa, CMI. It's kinda hard.

BUT THAT IS EXACTLY HOW SHE TYPED AND ALL!

I don't know is it hard trying to think of the storyline, or trying to add bad words and AH LIAN language. But I gave up. It's not fun after all. Maybe another time when I have the mood to continue. HAHAHAHAHA. Maybe I can come up with chapters even! Like Fanfic! Hahahahahaha.

To end off, let me display a very AH LIAN shot of myself! WHEE!

OMG. I just found out that she's married and pregnant? Woah, so not a very xiao AH LIAN after all.

And then again, she's pretty! She looks like Elva but with bigger eyes! Hmmm. That's perfect hor?

Hate the flu-cough-sorethroat combo

2010-10-20T23:12:00.005+08:00

I'm sick.

Started a night before the haze officially appear in Singapore. And the haze seriously worsens my condition luh. #?!@*&%?!

Browsed through some photos of the agency retreat we had at the first week of October and there's 2 photos that I particularly want to share cuz I particularly like them.

#1. Birthday girl, Jaslyn, tossed (voluntarily) into the pool.

#2. The girl who was about to leave then, Jiarong, being thrown into the pool (involuntarily).

Look at the mother holding the son back protectively. HAHA. Before that the boyboy was swimming freely without the mother's hold!

HAHAHAHA. What a sadist I am.

Anyway I got to sleep early cuz got to wake up at 6.30am tomorrow!

My TY5. :/

Without Shing Choon and Jiarong.

Okay, 안녕히 주무세요!

Or rather, annyeonghi jumuseyo!

OR RATHER, good night.

I resisted showing my displeasure publicly, but I couldn't contain it any longer.

2010-10-19T01:20:00.004+08:00

I remembered vividly the night which I first heard the SMRT jingle. I just ended ended work about 10pm or so, and was going to take the train back. Plausibly, I had had a bad day, and I was looking for people to go for some chilling-outs and obviously, among all the indecisions and the fickle-ness, I had heaved with near indignation and I had sat down in impatience at the crowded platform at Cityhall Mrt Station waiting for replies.

That was the fateful moment when I heard it.

It had blasted out like, I don't know, noise?! 3 ladies harmonizing in what way? I, URGH, it's horribly undescribable.

It's by the DIM SUM DOLLIES. I wonder why they think of such names for themselves. The name makes them seem very... Oily.

And yes, it had punctuated my annoyed mood, significantly. VERY, in fact.

"Train is coming, train is coming, train is comiiiiinnnggg. So start queueing. Love your rides."

Not to mention the "DING DONG" after that, it's so shrilling to the ear. Yikes.

Even on my best days, I will frown in peevishness.

On my good days, the song will spoil them (my good days) instantly.

HOW TO LOVE MY RIDES?!

For those who take the trains, I'm sure it should not be too unfamiliar to you guys. They played it everytime a train approaches.

Yes, it's catchy. But often, there's two reasons why people will have a thought etched in their mind. It's either very good, or it's VERY BAD.

And this is, but of course, VERY VERY BAD.

No! I don't have to hear it for the 5th or 6th time to feel irritated. I am already after hearing it once.

Isn't this good enough already? Reasonably sensible and mature. And most importantly, the following video almost pass the whole message across already.

Rather than some epic singing by the Dim Sum Dollies.

WAIT.

The nightmare doesn't end on the platforms only.

A couple of days (or is it the next day) after I heaved a sigh of relief to a colleague about not hearing the song inside the train cabins, YES THERE IT IS. I heard the voices of the 3 ladies again. IN THE TRAIN CABINS.

Something that goes, "Give up, give up, give up your seat, to those in need. Love your ride."

And one more. "Inside, inside, inside, it can be smooth inside. Love your ride."

-________-"

OH MY TIAN.

GIVE. ME. A. BREAK.

What is the government trying to do anyway. Yes, they want us to be reminded to be courteous and kind during our rides and all. I'm sure there are other better ways to throw their money at, rather than these types of songs, GOT MUSIC VIDEO SOMEMORE!

In 2009, the LTA had the "A Happy Journey Starts Like That" Campaign which featured Phua Chu Kang and Rosie. That seemed to be a bit CMI too, but at least it wasn't half as irritating as the ones now by the Dim Sum Dollies. I really don't know what to say already. They (LTA and whoever it may concern) are like ignoring the complaints in Straits Times. Zzzzzzz.

For the sake of the Mandarin-speaking citizens, Chinese versions of the songs should be played. BUT for the sake of EVERYONE ALIVE, the songs should be stopped playing.

It was the last straw for me when I was sitting under a block of flats opposite Pioneer Mrt Station one evening. I COULD STILL HEAR THEM SINGING LOUDLY AND CLEARLY. I had whipped out my blackberry and searching for the SMRT email to lodge a complaint. But before that, I had searched for an anti-SMRT jingle page, invited all my friends and their friends to join join join. The page wasn't created by me. But well, I need to support my complaint and need to be reflective of the public too.

Treat it as a petition or what. Go HERE and like it, and I will send the email very soon.

I'm reading the comments on youtube. Haha. Yes, Mr Brown should do a spoof on this, like how he did during the YOG earlier this year.

If given a choice, I wouldn't want to take the train till the songs are ceased playing PERMANENTLY! I am not kidding!

Seriously, I hate my rides.

I WOULD WANT A WHITE COFFIN WHEN I DIE.

2010-09-27T03:14:00.000+08:00

As if we weren't sisterly enough, me and Wan Ting wanted the same colour coffin when we die.

Remember, sweet?

Everyone's celebrating their 21st so deliriously that it's not that special anymore, and I will want to celebrate my 22nd more.

2010-09-20T16:06:00.005+08:00

Compos mentis. I've reached the stage and will give madness an understated meaning soon.

Lilin uploaded her birthday pictures, and I can't help but think the polaroid pictures are so pretty. I wanna get a polaroid camera myself.

Everyone's happy happy. :)

2010-09-20T12:50:00.000+08:00

NEVER TOO MUCH BLING.

Give me more. Give me blinggggg.

I turned on the lappie to do nothing again.

2010-09-17T01:32:00.000+08:00

I had powerhouse-ed on Wednesday night! Wa. Not as if it's a very great thing to announce, but, it was so so long since I danced my heart out. And well, the only sad thing is there wasn't any pretty girl for me to dance with for long. :P In fact, there was only a girl in our group. :/ And she disappeared halfway, leaving me on the podium with hungry she-wolves.

But oh well.

Anyway, just thought of the amount of green tea I've consumed over the years. Still recalled when I loathed the smell at the beginning. But ever since after that fateful sip, I fell in love with it. Green tea is a fail-proof. It acts as a mixer for liqueors, it can quench ur thirst, it can give me that mild saccharine rush whenever I need it.

Green tea is for people who wants a taste of flowers, but don't eat flowers.

Anyway I'm not picky about the clubs. Just give me great company, good music and I'll be pleased.

I love my boyfriend but he steals my photos. :P

This spells insomnia.

2010-09-15T03:09:00.008+08:00

I was scrutinizing my face critically, and observed pimples, undoubtedly and indubiously a malevolent herald of my forthcoming reds.

Each month appeared like an official stamp on my face. It's such a crushing anti-climax. The last couple of weeks of this ecstatic euphoria because I was almost happily balancing work and play, splatting on colours carefree-ly. Yet, those distasteful irritants appeared and threatened me to dab stuff on them and on them again, which will let them cheer in unison, multiply in number and increase in size and whatever.

ZZZZZ.

Anyway. I recalled an earthquake topic with a friend long time ago, and she mentioned a guy surviving days under the debris by drinking his own urine.

How?

Using his shoe.

Girls will probably be at a disadvantage cuz they wear heels and strappy sandals.

But, wow, imagine that again. Drinking urine from his shoe.

HOW TO?!?!

And as if urine isn't bad enough. From his own shoe off his own feet?

Besides that, actually there's something you can do. Two things actually.

1) Pray. Real hard.

2) Wait to die.

Or just bite ur tongue and die. To elaborate my pessimism, this is something I'll most probably do. So probably when anyone were to discover me after that, the reason of my death won't be due to the crushing. It's cuz I kill myself.

Here, take a look at my pathetic sore eyes. It was 4 days old when this picture was taken at Linda's birthday. =.=

So there.

Skin Food. Literally.

2010-09-11T02:50:00.001+08:00

Poo. Browsing through magazines, you can see occasional skincare tips that ask you to 'treat yourself with those lavish homemade goodies', which are easy to get and economically friendly.

Stuff like spreading mayonnaise on the face as face masks, sweet almond oil as moisturizer for dry skin, almond plus milk plus flour plus honey as exfoliator. Yea, all those stuff were spotted. I don't know why.. But all these don't sound right, right? At least to me. Even baking soda as exfoliators is skeptical to me.

Those unforgettable baths too. Adding milk, OATMEAL!, honey. Man, ants are so going to go charging to the BATH TUB in massive colonies. And can you imagine honey or milk on your private parts? Okay, sounds weird. But I have to say! The urge. Plus, it's quite funny.

Well, okay, you see, you have to dip your whole self into the tub of water with blobs of honey or pieces of OATMEAL floating around. (If the water is hot enough, the OATMEAL will be cooked. You can sink lower into the tub of BEVERAGE, open your mouth and drink away. HAHA. Not funny.)

Ya, and I was saying, obviously your privates will kena right. What if the milk and honey stuff are not washed off properly? I mean, you can't be 100% sure that it's washed off and is left without any traces. The milk turns sour and emits revolting odours from down there. What if ants were attracted by the irresistable remains of honey and when you wake up in the morning you discovered trails of these tiny, six-legged freaks on your underwear?

ARGH! I can't stand myself for saying all these. What is wrong with me? I can't stop. Lol.

I don't know. I will not dare to try any of them. But they seem so yummy.. and cheap too, compared to those products. OH and convenient too, cuz while doing skin care regimes you can actually stick out your tongue and lick the sides of your mouth. Killing 2 birds with one stone. I shall account if I were to try one day.

The Captions Say It All.

2010-09-05T00:36:00.002+08:00

Yes, the captions say it all.

I don't want to grow up.

我不想我不想不想长大
长大后世界就没有花
我不想我不想不想长大
我宁愿永远又笨又傻

A previous post that is worth bringing up. On Creepy Crawlies.

2010-09-03T01:52:00.002+08:00

This is previous post that is worth bringing up.

* * *

Anyway, insects suck. Like, why are they even on Earth?

There's one night, I was on a desperate attempt to kill a mosquito who had had her share of my delicious blood. It stung me, twice, and was flying around, carefree. Yikes.

So then, I made a mental note to defame the whole generation of those horrid creatures.

Insects that I came in contact with most frequently (and why they suck, not only on blood, but big time.):

Mosquitoes: They are swift and I can't kill them efficiently. When I get to kill, they form a mess of red and disgusting blood and body parts on my palms. They cause itchiness and ugly swelling. Eek rating: 5.5/10

Beetles: They are hard, as if wearing protective armours. They can't be squashed easily as a result. They make horrible 'piak' noises when hit against walls or surfaces. They literally stick to surfaces. They have big legs in proportion to their body, at least to me. Eek rating: 7.5/10

Cockroaches: Any explanations needed? Lol. Eek rating: 10/10

Bees: Their stings can be fatal. They seem to cause a lot of pain. Eek rating: 6.5/10

Houseflies: They buzzed, and represent disgust and germs.They are ugly.( But which insect is not?) They have ugly babies too. Eek rating: 7/10

Silverfish: They are silver and have distinct, shiny (and active) feelers. Yuck. They left me with no choice but to throw away my old board games, cuz they had half of their population living in them. They look disgusting too. Eek rating: 7/10

Ants: They appear in hoards and feed on my favourite flavour- sweetness. They are so aggresive that they cause so much pain when they bit. The degree of their horridness depend on their size and number. Eek rating of one small ant: 0.5/10. Eek rating of A LOT small ants: 10/10. Eek rating of one big ant: 6/10. Eek rating of A LOT big ants: 10/10

Dragonflies: They fly so fast you can't see their wings. And they hover in front of you whilst flapping. But they are harmless, cuz they have not crash into me all 17 years of my life. Eek rating: 3/10

Moths: They can grow to a feet long, or even bigger. They are dark looking, They stick to walls as if for eternity and they can freeze there the whole lift ride. One of their kind outraged my modesty by flying into my shirt in school. Eek rating: 4.5/10

Phew. It's not defaming. It's only listing the facts, in my point of view.

And I'll be much happier if millipedes are insects. Cuz. Insects have six legs. So if millipedes were insects, they will only have six legs. And not countless. The thought of it makes me want to cry, in horror and disgust.

I also want to add on to my hatred for insects. Only this time, it's not an insect. It's an arachnid. Spiders.

Well,
1) Spiders are poisonous. Even if they are not, you will not know when they are not.
2) Spiders hop. So that makes them able to move very fast.
3) They can HOP onto legs of chairs and onto your legs.
4) Spiders are terrestrial. They can live and swim and breathe in water.
5) They have 8 disgusting legs.
6) They spin disgusting webs!

I won't anyhow defame stuff unless they disturb me. Haha. The spider assaulted me last night. Anyway spiders are more freaky than ants cuz, you see shows about giant spiders but there are no shows about giant ants.

2010-08-15T23:41:00.000+08:00

Our friendship needs no words. ♥

Although it's still months away but.

2010-08-04T01:48:00.002+08:00

I'M SUDDENLY VERY EXCITED ABOUT HALLOWEEN!

EVERYONE SHOULD BE GOING THIS YEAR OKAY!

LET'S DRESS UP AND BE SPOOKY!

YAY!

Mahjong At It's Best

2010-08-03T19:15:00.000+08:00

I was working at the Electronics Fair at Expo last week. I had witnessed the horrific scene of the hoard of people (whom I think had been queuing up since 9 am or something, or even earlier) rushing in when the door opened at 11am, as though they were running from a volcano eruption (seriously).

Just imagine the term "flood in". And then picture it.

Also, I saw something which amazes me.

It's a mahjong table.

It looks like a normal table when you are playing on it.

So after the round, what do you do with your tiles? Shuffle them and then arrange them painstakingly right?

For this, you just push a button, the middle part of the table will rise, and there's this compartment which you push all the tiles in.

Initially I thought it was meant to put away the tiles for good conveniently.

But with another push of a button, the compartment closes itself, and then the tiles come out from underneath the table, arranged, in all 4 sides of the table.

Seriously just like this:

Aiya, I don't know how to say luh. But see those white coloured rectangles underneath the arranged tiles? Ya, those are the parts that will descend into the table and then appears again from underneath. Impressive. Lol.

Disclaimer: Okay, I'm just not cut up for doing adverts. Haha. But I wasn't trying to anyway. I'm just sharing my awe. I thought it was really an amazing thing.

For more information, just go here. Got music some more. (Y)

-.-

My Asus Netbook Is A Bimbo!

2010-07-28T00:49:00.002+08:00

I don't know if the dimensions of the pictures here wll be wrong.

Or maybe it's too big, or too small.

I don't know, I can't tell anymore. Lol. I spent 3 years blogging on my dear Vaio, that I find it hard to resize pictures on this stupid Asus netbook.

Speaking of which, I got a blue screen 1 night ago.

It's not even 2 months old yet.

My Asus netbook is a bimbo!

White and pretty but useless and slow! :(

Anyway, having pictures to view and talk about does not mean I have my life back. It only means I have a little time to have a little fun.

Weeks ago with my dear Ting. Short catch up over dinner but that's nice enough. ♥

♥

Pulai Springs Goal Setting with the PTO family!

Still have loads of flies around. Is that what I should remember JB for? :/

Agency outing last week. Lunched at Kuishinbo (!!!) and watched Inception (for the second time.)

He never runs out of poses.

Mad 'Jackpot' machine at Golden Village.

Reason for my euphoria? Haha. Look at the machine screen. I got the Star Cruise thingy! :P

Yes, I think the pictures are a little too big, but I'm not going to do anything about it.

Busy.

Till next time.

Lol.

Everyone has their flaws.
It's how you are going to accept the imperfections together with the good.
It's just like taking the bitter with the sweet.

Getting A Pet.

2010-07-19T02:59:00.012+08:00

Blogging once a month is not a very good idea. I write less. Which also means I express less virtually and for the very few people who come here and who do not have access to my Facebook, my absense here means I'm busy, not yet dead.

But say if I were to die, will my tagboard be filled with messages from random people saying "Rest in peace" and "She had been a very sweet girl when she's alive" those sorts of stuff? I wonder.

Anyway I've been tempted to get a pet since last month.

This is just my buzz, and there's no need for any controversy eh. So don't start with things like responsibility and time, cuz I know all of that, it's common sense.

And don't start a lecture telling me what to do about pets too. I know what to do.

So why do I want to get a pet?

1) It's gonna be cute.
One of the number one killer and fatal reason that leads to animal abandoning.

2) I will come back home looking forward to seeing it.
Provided I come home everyday. On time.

3) I will have something to talk to and nothing that will talk back.
What's more to say? This is retardedly satisfying.

4) I need something to make me go "AWWW...".

And my pet, in this context, does not include fish, terrapins or hamsters anymore.

The smaller the pet, the more troublesome it'll be. Yes? No? I don't know.

Like, look at fish (sorry, I don't believe there's ever a plural word called 'fishes').

If their water gets too murky, they die.
Too little food, they die of hunger, starved to death. Too much food, over-fed, die too.
You have to worry about them geting adrenaline rushes that will make them leap out of the water and die on land.
And what about those mummy fish which eat their baby fish.
And hard to tell when they are sick. I can't even believe that fish will fall sick, now thinking about it.
And that 'retaining 30% of their previous water and 70% fresh water' when it comes to changing tank water, horrible. Why would I even wanna retain dirty water and make my beautiful tank murky and precipitated with floating don't-know-whats.
And there's no 'fish competition' to compete among other fish.
And you can't accessorize your fish. You can only accessorize the fish tank.
You can't bring fish out for walks. And once you bring them out for a swim, they'll be gone for good.
You can't name your fish, cuz it will be dumb to do so.
And pretty much of the time, you can't even tell them apart.
Cuz you can't even tell the gender apart.
And one important factor- They are cold-blooded. I will be happier raising lizards instead of fish if I want to have something cold-blooded. Lizards are more independent.

Look at terrapins.

Too dirty water for them, they fall sick, And when they fall sick, they don't cry out or whimper, or tear or what. They remain the same face, same shape, same colour. And I won't know.
They need to sun-bathe, which I don't understand why too cuz they don't seem to get any tanner (sorry that's a pretty bimbotic sentence). And as much as they need to sun-bathe, they need to swim too. Troublesome.
And similarly, you can't accessorize your terrapins and there's no such thing as terrapin-walking.
It'll sadden and de-motivate you when they die, cuz terrapins, like tortoises, are supposed to have relatively longer lives than most other pets.
They get missing easily.
Refer to reasons number 7 to 12 from the 'fish' paragraph.
And also, importantly, they are cold-blooded.

Hamsters.

One day later from changing their beddings, they stink.
They squeak REALLY loudly. And you won't be able to get them to stop.
They slip out of your grab too easily.
You can't really tell much when they are sick, Or I'm not ~~observant~~ experienced enough to tell it.
Although they are mammals, they don't respond when you talk to them.
They are not appreciative to their owners, the people who feed and bathe them.
They bathe in sand, which I don't see how clean they will be.
They shit, real lots.
They shit at the place they eat and sleep and play. How bad of hygiene can this be.
I can't tell their gender apart, so all the time, I may be calling the male hamster by a female name and vice versa. They look too alike to tell one another apart. I must have identified them wrongly every other day previously.
They get lost too easily.
They chew on everything, including their own warm little caged houses.
I have problems breeding them.
Some hamster mummies eat their own babies (Sorry, I really can't accept the fact of eating one's own kind. Applies to cannibalism. So animals eating their own kind is like cannibalism in their own world. Horrible please.)

Although I do not have bunnies or rabbits before, I will not quite support the idea of having them too. Similarly to chinchillas, guinea pigs and all other rodents. Cuz they are just like the bigger version of hamsters.

Now to my two obvious shortlisted choices.

Have you heard of stories where dogs save lives of little owners in times of need and cats being the most adorable type of companions for the elderly cuz they are sweet and quiet? AWWW. (I'm actually out-ruling the fact that dogs howl and bark for no reason sometimes and cats scratch the hell out of your couches and furniture. Oh, and cats scream. Horribly. Can you define cat-fights?)

But on top of those,

Cats

They meow and purr.
Cuddly and cute.
Responsive and appreciative.
Independent.
I can name them.
I can teach them tricks.
They get along well with kids and babies.
They eat cockroaches. Okay, not as if I will let mine eat those creeps.
Can sleep beside me on my bed! *BONUS*

Dogs

Protective and loving to their young.
Huggable and cuddly.
Responsive and cute
Expressive, they are able to tear! Wow.
Can be trained and taught tricks.
Easy to tell gender apart.
I can give them names.
I can groom them.
I can accessorize them.
I can bring them out for walks.
They are better objects to show and tell than hamsters and amphibians.
They are relatively more independent.
They will grow attached to the owner (unlike amphibians and reptiles, which forget who feeds them, almost immediately.)

(Disclaimer: None of the content is adapted or taken from anywhere. Kudos that fact and therefore try to ignore the bimbo-tic factor that lies.)

So after typing out my own considerably-scrutinized analysis, I think I know what I should get as a pet.

I should get a cow.

2010-06-28T01:34:00.002+08:00

Time passes so fast, when I roll my eyes, it will be Christmas already.

JULY?! Blah. Time really flies luh. A couple of weeks back, I was asking Joyce what she wanna be this Halloween. HAHAHA. And speaking of which, I don't want to be the themeless "innocent girl who was killed in her sleep" (which reminds me of Nightmare on Elm Street cuz of the 'killed in her sleep' and 'in her sleep' cuz I was wearing an oversized shirt which looked like I wore it to bed, cuz it was last minute, like really at-10pm-go-Mustafa-and-buy-last-minute, and that's why it was boring and themeless).

WAHAHA. BUT! Really love the 'bloodstains'.

If I were too busy to think of any get-up this year, I will be a ninja. And I can pretend that I am a guy. Cuz after all, I'm all covered up. For instructions on dressing up to be one, ask me! Haha. I swear it's freaking easy.

Since March, I studied my brains out for the mandatory tests for my job, till now ~~June~~ July already, what a tough beginning honestly. I am not giving up on anything. I can't. I have the weight of the whole world on my shoulder. Hang in there.

I know I suck, and my persistance may not be somewhere there. I suck.

Try living up to the phrase "The eyes are the windows to a person's soul", when my eyes have dark circles beneath them, and at times are hard to open. I'm just like telling people I have no soul at all. FML.

Can you actually believed there's no new photo albums up in my facebook profile (not including my mobile uploads), and it means my camera has been on the shelf since eons ago, and which means I haven't been going out properly, and which means I'm damn sad? Haha. I don't even have any reasons to relive my narcissism.

If there were to be any significant updates, they'll only be agency chalet, NLP, and my little birthday celebration with the crankybutts.

I am real lazy to do something about the resolutions of the pictures. Thank God already I will want to add some colours to my post this time round.

I really, really miss school. I miss Ngee Ann. I miss complaining about school work and projects. :( I miss complaining what to wear to SCHOOL cuz even if I ended up wearing crap to school, at least I won't get into trouble with any lecturers. But now that I'm working... Lol. No more carte blanche.

I still can't stop ranting on Blogger even after so long, and I still can't gain any weight on myself. FML.

My exhaustion know no bounds. Baby, you're my only hope at the end of the day. ♥

2010-06-23T00:39:00.000+08:00

I'm falling sick again.

WTF.

After Vitamin C pills and even with Redoxon. FML.

2010-06-10T17:22:00.000+08:00

My motivation is at rock bottom.

And I'm falling sick like nobody's business.

What a bitch.

On abbreviations.

2010-05-25T01:35:00.001+08:00

Have you wondered how words like 'LOL' and 'OMG' come about?

It's like, some abbreviations formed by probably a lazy person who is too lazy to write or type a couple of letters too many. And initially it wasn't even recognized, and recipients have to reply with a HUH or ask what's that.

And then they are so widely used, that they become words themselves!

Then more surfaced, like 'ROFL', 'BRB', 'LMAO', 'TTYL', 'WTH', 'WTF' and er... 'OMFG'.

And lots more.

Wow. So can you imagine if next time there's 'HEGL' and 'IABRN'. HAHA!!! Don't understand eh... It's 'how's everything going?' and 'I am busy right now' Cool right. Imagine one day I use, 'HIWBFTWYLTGOWMT'. Guess what it means?

'Hey I will be free tomorrow, would you like to go out with me!'

And no, I won't wanna go out with you if you typed like that. Haha.

ROFL.

-.-

Okay, being serious, some people obviously have so much fun using abbreviations and short forms, they use them any time they could. "Lol, u c I luv u v v much." Worse if they have 'z' and 'x' to punctuate almost every word. "Lolx, I m havin lotz of frenz wif me."

Worse is! HelloXzxz. This ish moi picx. Hope eUu like iT!

NO. I DON'T LIKE IT.

IN FACT I HATE IT.

Well, the only people who will like it are those who type like you do.

Hmm, wait. But then, these aren't abbreviations anymore. These are word mutations.

I am going to sleep. Good nightzXsxZ!

No, no...

IAGTSGN!

Okay, this is one irritating post.

FRIGGING BUSY.

2010-05-09T00:18:00.003+08:00

I read the papers and found out a guy in Hong Kong died on the dentist chair after having his tooth extracted. I'm not mocking, but that just reminded me of the time when I had 4 of my teeth bloodily removed, and the excruciating pain that had followed and persisted for weeks. Thank God I didn't die on the dentist chair. I'm not a big fan of pain.

Busy. With everything that I can busy myself with.

Supperclubbing last week.

And ever since, I could not manage to get my energy back. :(

I need to sleep.

More.

2010-04-21T14:10:00.002+08:00

Am I supposed to put my life on hold
Because you don't know how to act
And you don't know where your life is going
Am I supposed to be torn apart, broken-hearted, in a corner crying?
Pardon me if I don't show it
I don't care if I never see you again
I'll be alright
Take this final piece of advice and get yourself together,
But either way baby, I'm gone

I'm so over it, I've been there and back
Changed all my numbers and just in case you're wondering
I got that new
I'm a single girl swag
Got me with my girls and we're singin' it sing!
Na na na na,hey na na na na hey
Hey hey hey
Goodbye

Cut my hair 'cuz it reminded me of you
I know you like the long 'do,
Had to switch my attitude up
Thinkin' of changing up how I ride, No more
On the passenger side
Too bad you miss out on the way that I drive it
I don't care if I never see you again
I'll be alright
Take this final piece of advice and get yourself together,
But either way baby, I'm gone

I'm so over it, I've been there and back
Changed all my numbers and just in case you're wondering
I got that new
I'm a single girl swag
Got me with my girls and we're singin' it sing!
Na na na na, na na na na
Hey hey hey
Goodbye

2010-04-19T01:14:00.003+08:00

TWEET WITH ME! Click!

I'm so happy I added the twitter widget to my blog. Haha. My previous one was screwed up and boring and ugly and badly-aligned.

SEE SEE SEE the new twitter box, at the left side, below my tagboard. Haha.

I'm 21 now. And I had poured water all over my phone on Saturday.

Something's wrong with my memory card reader. Pfft.

And for people who have supper before bed, fat si ni! Including myself.

I wish I pass m5 later on. Gonna turn in soon.

Cannot upload pictures cuz the memory card reader refuses to sense my memory card.

Updates.

2010-04-12T02:14:00.002+08:00

Went to Sherlyn's house a few weeks back. Picnic in the garden and mahjong on the driveway. ;)

Yacht outing 2 Saturdays back with some of the people from PTO. Great company. But sadly, sadly, sadly, I got so so so seasick.

Advanced birthday celebration for me and belated one for Michelle(speaking of whom, where has she gone to?!).

Likes a thousand time. :D

Taking m5 now. Finally passed my m9 last week. Whee.

Anyway, really thankful for my colleagues for being there.

And really. Assuming may sound clever. But over-assuming kills.

Learn.

I did and I do.

Yes, it's hard, but I should prioritize.

I'm not.

2010-04-06T00:36:00.001+08:00

I'm not anorexic. I'm slim.

I'm not talkative. I'm chirpy.

I'm not crazy. I'm cheerful.

I'm not wild. I'm fun-loving.

I'm not childish. I'm young.

I'm not immature. I'm youthful.

I'm not sarcastic. I'm humorous.

I'm not obsessed. I'm focused.

I'm not unreasonable. I'm justifying.

I'm not over-sensitive. I'm bothered.

I'm not impractical. I'm aspiring.

I'm not hopeless. I'm imperfect.

and the joke is on me.

2010-04-01T15:59:00.002+08:00

Happy April Fools.

For the record, yes, I am the fool.

Can't wait for the yacht trip on Saturday. Whee.

My troubles be gone with the wind. :):)

I am happy when I'm at the office and the people.

♥

Enlightenment.

2010-04-01T00:16:00.005+08:00

12.16am

And the thing which was deemed important, is no longer important anymore. I guess.

At least to me.

Well, of course, it's only to me. It was important only to me all the while anyway.

Guess you didn't share the same sentiments and hadn't think it was important.

But.

I've taken it in my stride.

And just let nature takes its course.

Let's just say I don't like to do things which are pointless.

And also, come what may.

If things ended cuz of my so-called outrageous attitude, then so be it, cuz inside, we know what's going on and what caused what, and how it could be avoided in the beginning before things were worse. I won't know what's going through exactly in your mind. You know it yourself - the best. The reasons, your reasons etc.

And if things were to go on, then good for you, cuz, you won't need to do anything against your will. Anymore. :D :D Hurray.

Just think that something enlightens me.

And be grateful I won't be breathing down your neck about that thing anymore! HOHO.

Oh yes, I was indeed breaking down. But, why do I let myself suffer by breaking down alone and you couldn't give a ~~damn~~ thing about it.

Of cuz, I stand up when I fall, I stand up myself.

To more smiles for myself. Kudos.

what's left of me?

2010-03-31T02:01:00.003+08:00

Adapted or written, make a choice yourself.

Sometimes, we find ourselves doing things that are unimaginable. Things that you never expect yourself to be doing. For the moment, you find yourself losing control over the things that you say or do. Cuz at that point of time, you just want to do what you want to do.

After you think it back, you realize how low you've stooped to try to get what you want. You've lost your pride. (Not as if pride is a very important thing. Pride is often over-rated. But still.) But the other party continues to let you be stooping like a dog, refusing to give in despite you and your pleads. Pleads that will cause you to think afterwards, "What the hell was I thinking at that time?"

The other party don't even want to give in out of sympathy. And you want to compare who's being more hurting?

What can be more hurtful, if the other party is someone whom you thought value you, has driven you to near insanity. The other party who supposedly values you, is the reason you've resorted to pathetic means to get what you want. The someone who is supposed to be there, who is supposed to value you and your pride more than anything else, who is supposed to put your feelings in front of their own.

When I think back, I think and see from both angles. Why am I like this, and why is the other party like this.

I'm not a very unreasonable person. But certain things had just caused me to be so. Desperate.

I couldn't recognize myself.

I hear myself crying and swearing and begging. And my alter ego told me, what am I doing? Do I have to do all these to prove my point? The person who is supposed to value you, shouldn't cause you to be in this state in the first place. He or she shouldn't even have let you have to beg just to prove your point.

I hear myself crying and swearing and begging, and feel my body shaking as I propped myself precariously onto the window grills. And I remembered a sentence, no one has the right to take away my life. Not even myself.

Nobody is worth your tears. And the person who is worth your tears, shouldn't be making you cry in the first place.

I'm not trying to cause drama or make a scene. I was so emotional and agitated because I've wanted it to be resolved asap.

I'm not a very unreasonable person. I was desperately trying to prove my point, because the other party had insistently and pertinaciously not comprehend my point.

I'm not being stubborn. I keep bringing up the same thing, that one thing, over and over again, is because, that is the only one thing that I want to bring across.

One small note to sum everything up. Suppose, A is the problem. But Problem B is the cause of Problem A. And Problem A causes Problem B too. What should you be solving first? Is there a point to this controversy if both parties persist to solve the two different issues concurrently, and both parties refuse to give in? Another note is, Problem B could have been redundant if Problem A is resolved at its earlier stage.

It could have been a very minor matter.

You were very right about one thing, I've definitely kicked up one big fuss. Cuz you know it yourself, it is just a small matter.

Now I've lost my pride, my self-respect, my image. What is left of me?

What is left of me that you can value?

Now let's try a different approach.

2010-03-27T17:12:00.000+08:00

I NEED AND WANT SOME SPICE!

FML.

I Think I Need a Supper Buddy!

2010-03-16T00:11:00.001+08:00

I think I need a supper buddy, yes!

Cuz I am always hungry at night!

But to my utmost disadvantage, the night owls in my circle of friends are mostly living ridiculously far away from me.

And everywhere is considered distant, cuz it's past midnight and there is no public transport except for cabs, which seem quite like a total absurdity to take just to go for supper at some place, and then come back again.

So unless you're living a street across from me, or probably some bus-stops away, which I can stroll home after a hearty supper, then bleah... QUITE AN ANNOYING FACT!

But things will be different if I had a car! GRAH.

Outdated. Last Monday, was it? Tze Char and Breko. ;)

I just couldn't get enough of seeing you guys. :D

Alright, I got to sleep. Can't keep my eyes awake. :/ Intensive revision are what's on-going for the past week, and also the following week to come.

Good night!

TUMBLR-ING CONCURRENTLY

2010-03-10T02:10:00.005+08:00

LET'S TUMBLR.

TUMBLR-ING MORE FOR MY CRAZY, RANDOM RANDOMNESS.

May abandon Blogger! HEH!

chloeisawesome.tumblr.com

Don't ask me why the name.

;)

Lil Update

2010-03-08T14:47:00.004+08:00

M9 tutorials done in 3 days! That super thick book.

IT'S FREAKING THE 8TH OF MARCH ALREADY! TIME FLIES! OMFG. One quarter of the year is almost gone.

Lol. Anyway steamboating at Lilin's house with Qiuz and Jzez the other day. I remembered it was the end of exams for me. And after 2 nights of mugging, I was in my zombie state can.

♥ LOVE YOU GUYS! XOXOXO.

Steamboat with the ex-class people at Qiuling's house. ♥

I miss the Asam clams so much man! QIUZ!!!

Then I had been hitting clubs, and not getting enough sleep, forever! No matter how much I rested I still feel tired luh. Lol.

Supperclub is really warm. Heh.

A tad lazy to resume my Tumblr. There's only like 2 posts which, haha, 1-sentence entries. TRY FINDING MY TUMBLR ADDRESS. Haha.

TUMBLR-ING SOON!

And I'm not that free anymore. :/

Random thought

2010-03-06T17:43:00.001+08:00

I will cry if I start balding.

Yea. Or perhaps I'll just die.

I Promise I'll Be Home After This Next Song...

2010-02-22T23:51:00.003+08:00

Ooh yes, I'm in da club...

I didn't go to St James on Friday after all.

And it's Supperclub on Friday and Saturday.

Crazy Lina and her company. (:

Gosh, I wonder why am I there on two consecutive nights when I have exams the following week. Don't judge me now. I'll study. Supperclub's a great place. Hee.

With Amanda, Chunlai and Rebekah...

Haha... Didn't know Sebastian is working there...

Each had a Flaming Lambo as a great start-off. ;D

Sebastian and his giant waterfall.

I'll be good.

I'll be good, and study.

Yes, excuse me while I spend my time conquering the bloody Retail Management and International Business. ZZZ!

Need my snacks as supplements but I'm getting tummy aches and sorethroats. FML.

P.S. REBEKAH, I KNOW YOU ARE READING THIS!!! HAHA...

So how was your CNY?

2010-02-19T01:16:00.003+08:00

Grah. I don't know whether to hate or like Chinese New Years.

People are either too tied up visiting or are having guests at their houses and are not free to go out. On the contrary, I love the food and all, the red packets, the cheery jubilation and festivity around, and I was too busy sometimes too, though I didn't do much visiting this year.

And I have yet to touch a single mahjong tile this time! How could this happen. Lol.

Went to visit Mr Low on Tuesday. And as like the previous years, his house was so sardined I couldn't move.

Hmmm. I swear there were still half of these shoes behind from where I was standing. I was always amazed by the stockpile of shoes that spread out like a big carpet in front of the doorway.

The mobbed living room, fit to bust, and the people seated almost anywhere and everywhere.

♥

With 老师...

Headed down to Ms Tan's house after that... :)

Ended the tiring day with a quick bite at MOF at West Coast Plaza.

Nice tangyuan but, OMG, I want to grumble about that olive-oil based pasta that I had. It was horribly tasteless. Just a dinky amount of spiciness from the chilli... But it was so mild I felt like I was eating oil. And the bad ice lemon tea. Gosh, I forgot about the other time I had that ice lemon tea at MOF and was saying how bad it was.

Speaking of FOOD, I can't stop feeling hungry right now! And I do not dare to eat much! Cuz I had been having stomach pains since I woke up yesterday morning. And I fear it might be that notoriously painful stomach flu (aka gastric flu) that I had before a couple of times. The experiences were so bad, I don't want to remember. I practically needed a wheelchair to move, cuz my tummy was hurting so badly.

Blah, anyway, so after my late-night eats of chicken soup and rice (That's not my dinner. I had dinner at 7pm), I had proceeded to eating my Bengawan Solo's pineapple tarts, and then having that fizzy drink. And now I'm still feeling a little hungry.

I'm going to be a good girl and study later in the day, because at night I'm heading to St James! ♥ Finally. :D

No, no. Not about the drinking. I had my fair share of drinks on Wednesday night at an Irish pub, called Toucan, with baby.

For Powerhouse, say I just miss the music, the music, the music. :) And of course, the great company that I always go with. And I ♥ to dance!

Going to bed now. 晚安!

拜年!

2010-02-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

I've enjoyed myself! (I love that pair of fuschia shades by the way. ;D)

I hate being so skinny cuz I can't wear my favorite watches.

My new Armani Exchange watch is so gorgeous. (QIULING! THIS IS THE ONE! ) But it is loose... ZZZZ!! But just look at that black dial. And the bling blings. ♥ It's the sex.

For the 3910231038th time, I'm saying, I hope to put on a little weight.

:(

And you know what, I got feel to study for my RM test now. HAHA. WTH.

拜年, 拜年, 拜年! ♥

Happy Tiger Year, people!

PLEASE WISE UP.

2010-02-15T16:29:00.002+08:00

Don't make somebody your something when the person treats you as nothing.

Don't waste your time on somebody when the person isn't willing to waste their time on you.

Have A Happy Chinese New Year & A Lovely Valentine's Day. (:

2010-02-14T03:40:00.000+08:00

AH. My projects are over and I'm now having that remunerative study break that I mentioned some weeks ago. LOL. Talk about remunerative, exams on the 25th and the 26th, and then I'm out of Ngee Ann Polytechnic!

Events that sum up the week include, the presentation preparations at The Loft with the class, the final presentation day, BB retest (AHEM), BB presentation, BPC report, and blahhh.

The Loft, the Loft, the Loft.

Presentation Day.

And it's Chinese New Year. Hmmm. I'm not very excited about the clash of Valentine's Day and Chinese New Year together, but what can I do? Lol. Anyway, yes, Chinese New Year. My Lim Chee Guan Bak Kwa, Bengawan Solo's pineapple tarts and many, many more food. But sadly this year, my appetite was a little weird, cuz I am always hungry but I don't feel like eating. That's like bad, bad, and super bad.

The next best thing is of course the red packets. ;)

TA-TA. I sense a great day ahead! ♥

FML.

2010-02-06T01:28:00.001+08:00

FUSCHIA, BABY, FUSCHIA.

♥

Turned out the 2000 words report wasn't due yesterday. Never mind. Spare me for one night on Thursday night.

Isn't it sad, if the person you thought you can count on, doesn't listen to you anymore?

Listen, not as in obey you. Listen, as in hear you out.

And then how could I still feel something which was from 6 years back.

Somebody enlighten me please.

Seriously. FML.

My cramps. !$(@#!$!*#!

Discuss...

And discuss...

One more week till projects are officially over. 5 more days to be exact. (Y)

Shall we face it? We tried.
We can't force things.
I do not want it to be like this. But what can we do?

Shitday.

2010-02-04T21:10:00.002+08:00

*Revised Version of the Real-life Conversation*

Guy boasted, "I was so great at dancing last time.I recalled dancing in the middle of the podium
alone, just with my buddy."
Girl retorted, "I can do the same too! I can dance in the middle of the podium alone, just with your buddy."

HAHAHAHA. OMG, GET IT?!?!

Damn, anyone who heard this should laugh, no soul should take offense. It's genius-ly answered, with tinges of sarcasm and some humor.

♥

Anyway, yes, like I've stated on my Facebook wall, I hate being busy. I rather be dead bored. At least when I'm bored, I can find something to get busy with. But when I'm busy, I can't find any chance to get bored.

No, my life don't revolve around Facebook, but, haha, there are certainly some funny groups that I've seen and joined. One example is, 'Shitday, shitday, shitday, shitday, Friday!' Like !@?#@?!?$? Who the hell can think of something that brilliant and which depicts our sorrow in this way. HAHA. SO TODAY IS SHITDAY!

I can't believe I just found out today that the 2000 words individual report is due tomorrow. Like, some other friends of mine are having theirs due next Friday. Okay, not that 2000 word is hard. Uh, okay, actually it is. I will publish the time I took to write. From the moment I open Microsoft Word document till my very last concluding sentence alrighty.

And just some time ago, our chairman sent an email reminding us the powerpoint slides are to be done so that compilation can be done tomorrow as well.

Just recovered from my throbbing sickness.

Hocus Pocus. FOCUS.

2010-01-31T02:21:00.001+08:00

Hmmm. Finally I can sense my schedules being less frantic, with just BPC presentation and BB presentation on the 8th and 11th of February respectively. And probably BB RETEST (Yes, I reckon I will fail...) and then last two examinations on the 25th and the 26th, and then yes, three cheers.

Past events! JGIS Green Bazaar at Old School two Saturdays back. It was hot, boring and unproductive. :/

Retail Management Bazaar at Big Splash, East Coast Park the next day, 17th. It had been scorching under the sweltering sun, but it was kinda fun... Just that the heat from the sun made us feel so lethargic. Maybe only to me. And Bridget. Well Our cupcakes were nice. HEEEE. I love saccharinity.

Look at that DOGGY-STYLE stall above. So cute of them.

Human Communications project, re-filming in school and presentation. :P

Then there were lots of project presentations, assignments and report submissions... And finally TGIF and had steamboat at Qiuling's house on Friday night, with the ex-classmates. :D OOH I miss her so much I wonder how I can survive this couple of weeks (or even months) without seeing her. ♥

Well, I went for Left4Dead2 just now. And blahhh. Finished all the maps of Left4Dead2, wanted to go back to Left4Dead and try completing the maps cuz when L4D2 came out, we totally abandoned the thought of playing L4D at all.

I'm having this bloody cough and sorethroat and my throat feels super itchy and it sucks cuz it's annoying. And I don't seem to get enough rest, cuz no matter how much I sleep, I still feel tired.

January's almost over. How time flies.

Buenas noches. (:

Fuck you.

2010-01-27T23:56:00.003+08:00

Fucking hell.

People can be patient and kind. But you are so capable of going over their limits.

You better treat the people around you in a nicer way.

Or I swear to God, you will be sorry.

Mark my words.

Busy.

2010-01-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

Yes. Busy.

And not enough shut-eye, as usual, no need to rant more.

I had been resorting to weird methods to stay awake and to force myself to wake up on time.

I have drank milk to recharge myself at night, have been drinking lots of water at night so I will have the urgency to wake up earlier in the morning, not using the covers so I will feel cold in the morning and wake up grudgingly.

Haha, funny for me to think of those.

No, listening to music does not help me to stay alert. It only acts as a distraction.

And alarm clocks and morning calls do not work that well for me anymore, moreover my exhaustion know no bounds.

So yes, ta-ta. Back to projects.

Darn.

2010-01-12T22:58:00.002+08:00

For if you look at ourselves more closely,
you will observe differences, not hiding themselves anymore.

This will be a boring post because it is my ranting about school.

2010-01-11T23:53:00.007+08:00

The thing I need most is sleep.

A brief peek at my horrible schedule, similar to previous post's, but with additions.

12 Jan: BPC logbook, BB print ad assignment due

15 Jan: IB report

16 Jan: Green Bazaar at Old School @ Mount Sophia (part of BPC project)

17 Jan: Bazaar at Big Splash (RM project)

18 Jan: BB test

20 Jan: HCOM essay submission

21 Jan: WISP presentation

22 Jan: IB presentation

28 Jan: HCOM presentation

5 Feb: BPC final presentation, BB presentation

25 Feb: IB exam

26 Feb: RM exam

Actually looking at these dates isn't enough to depict my distress. It's those in-betweens too. Just how many days do we need to complete and how much we wish there is 30 hours a day. So many things, so little time. Plus, amidst those days, I have 4 ongoing tuitions. =.=

I need some decent shut-eyes.

And now people, when I pondered about what 'need' is all about the other time on Facebook, let me give u an example right now. THIS! I NEED more sleep. Lol. Or I will die.

I've pasted the definitions from dictionary.com, and came out with my own illustrative sentences. Behold.

need
–noun

1. a requirement, necessary duty, or obligation: There is no need for me to go to bed.

2. a lack of something wanted or deemed necessary: to fulfill the needs of sleeping.

3. urgent want, as of something requisite: I have a need to rest.

4. necessity arising from the circumstances of a situation or case: There is a need to worry when one does not have enough sleep.

5. a situation or time of difficulty; exigency: to help a friend in need; to be a friend in need.

6. a condition marked by the lack of something requisite: the need for well-deserved rest.

7. destitution; extreme poverty: ~~The family's need is acute.~~ Well, not applicable!

Anyway, from the depressing agenda, note there's a pretty remunerative break of 20 days after my BPC and BB presentations before my two bloody papers. Talk about irony. Well, I would rather have my IB exam on the 17th or somewhere around there. Like, just look! 25th and 26th, consecutive killer papers. The worst thing is, IB paper is in the afternoon on the 25th, and RM paper is in the morning on the 26th, the next day. I don't get enough time for me to remove IB stuff and cram RM thingys into my head.

And the saddest thing is! 26th happens to be the last exam day for the whole business school. Hallelujah! -__- What luck to have both papers on the last 2 days of the exam period. So when the rest of the school were deep in excitement about the end of their school semester, rejoicing over the start of their holidays, posting shoutouts and happy statuses on Facebook with things like, "It's over!" or "Holidays!", the poor students taking the modules, International Business and Retail Management will still be mugging the hell out of ourselves.

Superb.

Now, pardon me as I go and try to find my OM.

School. boo.

2010-01-07T22:14:00.003+08:00

Do I complain how bad my cramps are every month?

Lol, I don't know. Not that I want to publicize it or what, but yea, when the stabbing pain pangs come as I type, sorry, but I will grumble. Well, yes. It's killing me again right now.

To add to my torment, assignments and projects are slowly putting me to death too.

How busy I am going to be! ARGH. Deadlines after deadlines. I so need a break, and well, it's a tad early but tgif tomorrow.

-___-

♥ Happy news. I got my Bebe cap!

♥ Thank you thank you thank you love! (:

Anyway, I was just being handed over 2 new tuition assignments. Primary 5 and 6 boys. Oh my, they are both so delightfully adorable. One has little toy cars and little Doraemon plush toys on top of his study table, which... Awww... I just can't raise the slightest bit of my voice at these kids, can I? I AM NOT A PAEDOPHILE.

My primary 2 girl work never fail to amuse me. But then she gave the most absurd answers, that I was almost sure she did the work without looking or reading carefully cuz she just wanted to get over and done with it!

* * *

(From Oct 2009)

I have this Primary 1 girl as a student, whom I known her for claiming that her answers were right, but when it turned out wrong, she said those wrong ones were my answers. Anyway, a section of their(her and her class') mock examination English paper had required them to refer to a print advertisement, and then answered three multiple-choice questions based on the advertisement.

The advertisement was about a promotion thingy for children at that, at the bottom of it, it was written -

"First 100 early-birds will receive a free gift pack."

So the question asked was- "Who will receive the gift packs?"

a) First 100 children
b) First 100 birds

And yes, my cute student had put b) First 100 birds.

I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time.

* * *

Besides the unforgettable 'earlybirds' question last year, there are more silly answers.

Remember, patience is a virtue. :)

Ta-ta.

Yes, let the good times come back. ♥

:)

2010-01-04T00:08:00.000+08:00

School.

Boo.

HMMM...

2010-01-02T04:19:00.011+08:00

The more I look at it everytime I scroll down that page, the more tickled I am.

To think that you were thinking I had assumed you were talking about me. -___-

The message may be meant for you. It may be referring to you. May be. If you think and feel so, then yes. (And then again, why were you so conscious?) But I certainly know you were not talking about me, please. Lol. Hmmm. If I were in fact referring to you, what I would be meaning was, I had seen those things before, and what a pity, cuz how well-said the words were, but they were genuinely fake.

And ya, anyone can say it was none of my business, but I was just writing my disgust, along with my sympathy for some related people, on my own wall, on my own laptop, in my own room, in my own house. Carte blanche. Did I state names? Did I tarnish any part of your precious reputation? No harm done. No one will even be sure I was referring to you. ;)

Maybe.

If this happens to get to you and you see this, then let that clear meaning be known to you. Thank you. :)

And also be known the fact that you are not that hard to forget, oh please. You don't have to gloat. -.-

If you don't see this, well, too bad for me that I've wasted my 5 minutes then. But I don't have to pay for posting an entry anyway.

It just made me roll my eyes even harder again now, to think of it again.

And when I saw your own comment, I froze for a second, in horror. I guess I was feeling horrified, to make you mistaken, had you having that sort of wishful thinking that I was assuming it was me you were talking about! Haha. I'm sorry, but I'm not as thick-skinned and insensitive as you are. Lol, I know who I am, and I don't linger around stubbornly in the lives of people who obviously don't want me to. Hmmm, I don't think I see this point in you. :)

Puh-leeze.

And if you think you are so smart, think again.

Do you think you know everything?

P.S. I did not say I'm smart. I'm pretty dumb and stupid seriously. For the silly mistakes I've made and all. At least I know what are my flaws. Rather than being overwhelmed by narcissism and thinking so highly of self.

Good morning, and sweet dreams to you. I know it's time to sleep, but wake up?

No resolutions for the new year, cuz I don't keep to them.

2009-12-31T16:24:00.005+08:00

At town with Amanda and Kaixin last week. Had dinner at Marche, ice-cream, then Hk Cafe just in that evening. :/ Hee... Kaixin cannot be my financial consultant. Ask her why. Haha.

"This thing cost $36, if you use it for 36 days, it will only be $1 a day..."

Christmas party at Chuyun's uncle's place. Love the food! ♥

Outdated pictures... :)

♥

Last day of 2009 eh.

No, this year didn't go ridiculously fast. (So I won't be joining that Facebook group, lol.)

At least not for me. It's a slow and umm... Slow year.

So glad 2010 is here. A new year for me to look forward to. Hoping I'll forget the bad, and get the good to replay.

But I'm not going to oversell new years. It's just a new year, and at the end of 2010, people will still be grumbling how bad their year has gone, and how much they are looking forward to the new year (yet again). And then it will keep happening. -___-

But still, 2009 has made me open up to a hell lot of things. Knowing people cannot be trusted and are disgusting, and how much of an act they willing to put up and go through for their own benefits. Shudder. And then also understand true friendships... And understand myself that I can be this strong enough to overcome the downs. :)

Alright, maybe enough for the bad stuff. Gonna make new year eve rock. Ta-ta.

No resolutions! ;) As the title suggest!

Happy New Year, everyone. ♥

After Monday & Tuesday even the Calender says W T F...

2009-12-15T23:49:00.002+08:00

Haha, what a cute phrase right, the title above. Extracted from one of the Facebook pages, even comes with a picture of a cat looking completely astounded and aghast, which obviously speaks WTF.

Ya, see what I mean. Haha.

I just consumed a massive amount of junk food which I think will keep me awake for a pretty long while, although I am now so tired and sleepy from the little drama last night.

Speaking of which, I think I overestimated his lying capabilities, thought he could think of something better, like how he always does. But, good to know of things now, rather than wasting more time and efforts, which include what I was planning for this holidays. At least I can have plans for other better things who are worth my time in my precious term break. Anyway, shouldn't humans be daring enough to admit if they are daring enough to do it in the first place? Be a man.

At least have the decency not to do anything to bring down the name of it.

-__- Loser.

Don't tell me how fast I can move on or anything, cuz it's you who make it so much easier for me.

I don't want to study for RM, sorry...

2009-12-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

I hate to study from the computer, cuz distractions are a high possibility.

Grah, in the midst of looking through my Retail Management notes, I grew bored and tired.

So you know what I mean?

Then the thought of executing the sales is quite a turn-off at this moment. Furthermore without a car? And have to lug the goods around, argh. I'm not even seeing my term break next week as a break. Horrible. Can Envizyme sponsor car rentals? It will be so much facilitating.

Anyway yesterday's training. Despite the last minute withdrawals by some people, and the ridiculous excuses they had given, all was well. Were we having fun ourselves? Haha.

Mr Kevin Chua is so cute luh.

Me and Kaixin. Her headshot was flooded with comments on Facebook, and I'm kind enough not to post them up. :D

Coach Davis! Why the name sia.

Trying to catch my unglam shots? :D Look at the one on the bottom left. I looked possessed. Haha.

Coach Davis was good. Haha.

And...

Our houses will be acting as inventory, yes. Storing the goods temporarily. -__-

Chui, how to study finish my RM. It's urgh. Just a 20 minute quiz, and I have to study 5 topics?

I'm sleepy already...